Indebted to His Love

2008-11-20T10:24:00.006+08:00

Walking In The Power Of Your Daily Sufficient Grace

I believe that we had crossed paths a few times. If I had not acknowledged you 4 years ago, what would I have become?

I think my EQ would still be very low. I would still be having problems managing my own emotions. I could still be blatantly showing my disgust to anyone and everyone on a bad stormy day. I would not have learnt to cope with circumstances and respond to the needs of other people. I would be thinking more about my own feelings rather than sparing a thought for others.

I would not have forged so many good relationships with my friends from NUS and Church. I would have less friends and probably would have missed out the good and fun times I spent with my friends. I cherish my friends this day and I thank you Lord that you've given me so many. Relationships that are not built on a hi-bye, but on solid shared experiences that bring us closer to one another, especially with my archi mates, cell group and Eusoff Christian Fellowship.

I would not have blessed others and savour the fruits of joy through sharing my personal insights with them. I thank you Lord that you've brought people to me and granted me the privilege to share my life, my walk, my experiences and your word with them. I thank you that you've used me as a tool to bless.

Today, I am reminded of your great works in my life. The people whom you've brought to me and the circumstances which you've allowed to shape me, this piece of stubborn clay. I am still "work-in-progress" but it's alright because I know I am safe in my potter's hands. You know what's best for me and you would bring me to where I should be.

Above all, I need to respond to your touch and allow myself to flow between your fingers and obtain the shape that you desire of me. I like to walk in the destiny that you have for me.

2008-09-03T02:08:00.003+08:00

I know why I blog.

Blogging is not just about telling my life to others.
It serves to remind me of what I used to be.

2008-05-28T23:00:00.013+08:00

My Holiday away from the hustle and bustle of Singapore
and immerse into the charming beauty of Penang.
Malaysia Bagus!

Back from a trip in Penang... and truly learn to appreciate Malaysia. Amazed at the sight of the Penang bridge and enchanted by the rich cultural and historical heritage of this beautiful place. The rustic charm of Penang is simply irresistable. Needless to say, the delicious food!

For a really long time, I do not know how to appreciate my own country. Finally, I've caught a glimpse of her innate beauty and learn to appreciate her humble character.

Also been to Ipoh. Updates later... when my e-scrapbook for the Ipoh trip is ready.
This is so cool! =)

2008-04-30T10:06:00.006+08:00

The Lamb who is in the midst of the throne will shepherd them.
Revelation 7:17

The Lamb who died to save us is the shepherd who lives to lead us.
The Lamb is my Shepherd.

2008-04-25T12:00:00.000+08:00

Gangxia - Bookhub
Shenzhen, China

This was my final work for my last semester in school. It is a project sited in Gangxia, an urban village in Shenzhen, China. Gladly satisfied at the completion of my work, both my drawings and model.

I was quite despondent because I receive lukewarm comments from my professor who felt that my drawings did not sufficiently described the project scheme and that they could be strengthened further. I agree to some extent that his comments were valid but I felt that we have deferring emphasis on the kind of drawings presented. I invested my effort into drawings that explain the narrative and the spatial quality of the project in its entirety while he prefers a sequence of perspectives which could illustrate the differing spatial quality. We are essentially talking about similar things but my choice of presentation misses his expected illustration of my project. Yes, architecture is subjective indeed.

That aside, it's been a week since I ended my critique. Critique went fine, there was no major disagreement with the project scheme. Praise God. Was certainly privilege to have my younger brother and my hall neighbours (Meiyi, Michelle, Manyan, Melissa, Mandy aka Heiman... the ''M" ladies) to assist me and grant me support throughout this submission preparation. Thank you so much for your prayer support and encouragement throughout this submission and during my last 5 years of school.

When Audrey heard that I have completed my project and could successively graduated from NUS, she felt like she was graduating with me. Ha. Indeed, my cell group has accompanied me through these years and they certainly know how hard the course had been and how tough my educational journey was.

The completion of my architecture course could only be possible because of God. It was during this course when I accepted Christ and it was through this course, that I felt the reality of God. In this final submission, He showed me once again through tangible ways that He was with me. He refreshed my perspective of what it means by the sufficiency of His grace. He reminded me of the leftovers after he fed the five thousand with merely five loaves and two fishes. He is a God of sufficiency who supplies more than our humanly expectation and exceeds beyond our logical and limited perspective towards the nature of things.

I never like to use the phrase "Akitorture" which aptly describes the course "Architecture". I know I have completed this course with joy and thanksgiving because I have learnt much and matured much. It's through the struggles and the torture that I learn to appreciate the fruits of my labour. The course is tough, that's undeniable. But, the course is complexly intriguing. It's multi-disciplinary as it goes beyond the boundary of the walls. Architecture discourse is more than just architecture... it's always architecture with the world, with the nature, with the political climate, with the economics, with the society..... LIMITLESS.

2008-04-18T15:32:00.000+08:00

Spot me. I was in it!
It's been so long... 4/5 of a decade.

2008-03-25T13:13:00.001+08:00

Dear Friends,
I am still around. With sincere apologies, I have not been faithful in penning down my thoughts because I have been diligent with my architecture project which is going to finish in 19 days time. This project is my final project before I bid adieu to my 5 years of architecture heritage.

Please pray for me to finish this project well. More importantly, please pray for joy in finishing this final lap of the 5 years race which I have been toiling with. Joy comes from overcoming hard work, hard knocks and struggles. Pray for my well being too!

I pray to finish this race well by the grace of my Father.
Lord, I desire to honour and glorify you. Amen.

Faith

"Still clinging onto my faithful God although sometimes my heart is faithless. Because He says in His words , 'For we walk by faith, not by sight - 2 Corinthians 5:7 ' "

2008-01-08T10:48:00.000+08:00

Happy Hippo!!

Since it's the beginning of a new year, I've decided to give my greyish pink hippo a good bath. She deserves one for being my best pet!
This is probably the most ridiculous post that I have ever written here. But it's fine. All for my princess, my favourite soft toy. Hippo! Dearest loves hippo too. =)

For Ms. Pearl, the following is an account of my hippo about her bathing experience.

1) Mistress tenderly and carefully put me into a luggage, although she pushed me into the luggage when my butt stuck out of the luggage. I was kept in it together with other things and suffered a few bruises while travelling from Singapore to Mistress' home in Malaysia. I waited in anticipation. I can't wait to see Mistress's mama.

2) Then, Mistress's mama took me to the bathroom, placed me in a pink bathtub and started pouring water onto me. She added some bath gel into the water. I stayed in the bathtub for about an hour before Mistress's mama scrubbed me gently and subsequently placed me under the shower to wash me clean. Thereafter, Mistress' mama wrapped me with a towel to prevent me from catching a cold. She put me in the washing machine with the towel and spun me in it. It was so fun to be spun around. It felt like in a roller coaster. I love Mistress' Mama.. She bathed me well and I smelled really good. =)

3) After that, I went on a sunbath. Hippo needed a good tan.

4) When I was finally dried, Mistress gave me a big friendly hug. I am pink again! Mistress helped me to dress up and I look pretty again. =)

Here's a picture with my Zhu Ren after I showered.
Hippo and Mistress are happy. =)
Happy Hippo in this Happy New Year with my Happy Mistress.

2007-12-31T02:14:00.000+08:00

Thanksgiving for 2007

2007 passes with a blink of an eye. Went for CG yesterday night and we were asked to share our items of thanksgiving. Thought it was such appropriate time to celebrate God’s goodness and grace and give thanks for his never ending blessings. Praise be to God, whose name shall live forever more.

Entering into a relationship with my dearest is one of the highlights in 2007. Looking back, I am happily smitten by the times we spent together laughing and quarrelling. Thank God for this relationship. He has indeed carefully chosen one who could adroitly handle my unpredictable temperaments. =)

Faith has also learnt to trust in the Lord. When the rubber meets the road, it is always difficult to exemplify qualities of Jesus which God desires. This time, I attempted to, it was hard, but I am glad that I did. I was drawn to a point of desperation when I realized that my only hope was in the Lord.

My recent submission was a nightmare. By God’s grace, He sustained me. I did not know how my project would turn out when I have only the last 3 weeks to finalise and draw for submission. I surrendered the entire project to Him with the soul desire to honour and glorify Him. In this submission, I purposefully set aside time daily to seek Him and find rest in Him daily. The time spent was Him was so sweet despite the impending deadline and the impossibility of finishing my work. He never failed to meet with me. For once in a long time, I felt that I had truly transacted my fears and worries with my God.

This was my prayer which I wrote in my devotional journal during my submission preparation,

“I desire to honour God in this submission, glorify Him, trust Him and depend on Him. Lord, I pray that I’ll not exceed my own expectation. Instead, I will try to do what I can and leave the rest of my work and the result to you. Because, I desire to see you work in miraculous ways. I desire to experience your Grace that could mostly experience when the rubber meets the road. Lord, I pray to honour you by feeding on your daily bread and praying to you and giving thanks to you. God, would you honour me? =)”

For once, I truly understand the meaning of depending on God entirely and trust that His grace is sufficient for me. Eventually, I completed my work and submitted on time. There was no tear and emotional break down, unlike my previous submission. I was in more control and have greater peace in God who can turn water to wine - who can make the impossible possible. God is able when I can’t. God can.

I did fine and manage to overcome my fear of checking my results. All glory and praise to God because I have grown through this incidence of seemingly hopeless situation. I am victorious in Christ who overcame death and was resurrected 3 days later. My God is alive. There is HOPE.

Faith will continue to grow in this living hope.

2007-12-25T02:17:00.000+08:00

"Christmas isn't Christmas,
til it happens in your heart.
Somewhere deep inside you
is where Christmas really starts.
So give your heart to Jesus,
you'll discover when you do;
That it's Christmas,
really Christmas for you."

Blessed Christmas,
my dear friends.

I've been good. Submission went fine. Holidaying now. Just returned from an overseas trip. Now soaking in the atmosphere of the Christmas and New Year season. Cheers!

2007-11-06T10:23:00.000+08:00

The Lord Is My Portion

Adapted from www.christian.com

A man goes into his workshop to produce a piece of magnificent furniture; but the electrical power has been shut down as the result of a thunderstorm. He possesses every conceivable power tool, and begins to try to fabricate and construct his creation. He takes the blade of the circular saw and tries to spin it in order to cut through the pieces of wood. He rotates the chuck of the drill to produce sufficient revolutions per minute in order to create the holes necessary to allowing fastening of the pieces of his project together. He spins the mechanism of the lathe in order to shape the legs of the table that he envisions. But all of his efforts are futile: he doesn’t have sufficient strength or facility to produce the speed of blade or bit or cutter to do the work he purposes. However, as soon as the electrical power is restored, every tool comes alive with potential to accomplish the tasks that he was unable to do in his own strength.

How like that man are we when we deny God’s strength, and attempt to accomplish life goals in our own power.

How weak man is when compared to the magnificence of God; how powerless when compared to the infinite strength of God. And how unlike ours is God’s willingness to share His power.

The Lord is my portion means that one can fulfill his commission to subdue the earth – but only in the delegated power of his creator.

“I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.” (Philippians 4:13)

Notice that Paul doesn’t say all “religious things.” Nor does Paul say “some things.” He says, inspired by the Holy Spirit, “all things.” Every component of our lives, every action that we are commended to take, every thought, every emotion, every action can be submitted to and then equipped by the power of God.

It will never be: “I can do all things through ME who strengthens me – that is a formula for disaster. But, in His power, I can do all things He calls and equips me to do because: The Lord is my portion!

“The Lord is my portion,” says my soul, “Therefore I have hope in Him.” (Lamentations 3:24)

John in his Revelation gives us an inspired picture of the physicality of Heaven: streets of gold, structures of precious stones, crystal rivers, bounteous trees, visible angels – and encompassing all, the brilliant glory of God.

Our physical being will experience sights, sounds, smells, tastes, and touches that earth’s experience can only anticipate. Our soulish being will experience intellectual understandings and emotional jubilation that earth’s experience can only approximate. Our spiritual being will experience a oneness with our Creator God that earth’s experience can only await. We will be overwhelmed by God!

In reality, we cannot even begin to imagine the glories of eternity with our Father who loves us, with our Savior who sacrificed for us, with the Holy Spirit who inhabits us. We can only possess a feeble approximation of what a limited mind and experience can assume. God’s Word in Lamentations gives us a picture, however, that can amplify that approximation while experiencing the limitations of this earthly existence. . . . “The Lord is my portion.”Shropshire, Richard J., Ph.D., adapted from The Lord Is My Portion, 2003. Used by Special Permission.

"The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases,

His mercies never come to an end.
They are new every morning, new every morning.
Great is thy faithfulness O Lord,
Great is thy faithfulness."

2007-11-02T15:37:00.000+08:00

Although I wasn't from the batch that was featured in the video, it brings me fond memories of my time 5 years ago. How time flies... and I miss my school.

2007-10-30T02:18:00.000+08:00

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness,
and all these things will be given to you as well."
Matthew 6:33

God reminded me today that I am His chosen one.
He refreshed my perspective of my responsibility and identity in being His Child.

Ought to fulfill my role as His Child first. That's the fundamental.

2007-10-29T00:29:00.000+08:00

Probably some might have guessed, that I am working through yet another night for tomorrow's studio. Terrible, I just dislike working through the night and not having proper rest.

I don't feel like working and rushing for another interim, that's why I have decided to write something on this long neglected blog. I'm left with 15 days away from submission. I am more anxious, fearful, unmotivated... it's nightmare for the next 2 weeks to pull through a design which is merely 50% developed. Tutor never seem to understand or remember that submission is two weeks away. Feeling stressed from the demands of tutor and submission requirements. I know Dearest wouldn't like to hear this. But, sometimes.. I can't help. This is what goes through my mind... I pray to be more positive.. I pray to keep my eyes on Him alone and not on the impossibility of the impending deadline.

I pray for strength from God.. mental strength, emotional strength, and physical strength. I pray to go through another arduous journey with joy and not depressing lies from Satan.

Friends, please keep me in prayers. It's yet another battle.

God help me.
I pray to finish well.

Consider it pure joy, my brothers. whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.

James 1:2-5

2007-10-07T01:00:00.000+08:00

Updates

Spent the whole day in my room, trying my best to work on my design and hoping that I could be heading somewhere with my multiple trials.... I must admit, I feel that my design is still very much lacking.... lacking of depth... lacking of interest.

Sometimes, it's not that I don't like what I do. My non-aki friend used to comment on my overnighters when i told her that I just have to work overnight. She says rather honestly... that I didn't like what I was doing and therefore I procrastinated. I felt terribly wronged

Felt frustrated with design sometimes. Tried very hard, worked very hard.. My loved ones could attest for that...But, I just don't hit the nail. Sometimes, I feel like resigning because I think I am not cut out to be an designer...

I dislike the feeling of working so hard, yet still feel aimless because.. I don't know how I am designing.. Guess you won't understand... It's all very abstract.

I feel deprived. Deprived of a carefree lifestyle.. and heavily burdened by design and the impending submission date which I terribly fear. I am afraid that I can't finish in time to submit. I hate those days leading up to my submission, it's always so tiring.... and I always run out of steam..

Pls pray along with me. Pray for a great development and improvement in my design which is hardly 20% developed. Pray for restedness in my soul and encouraging spirit to keep me moving with this ardous journey that seems almost impossible to finish. Pray for stronger trust and reliance on my Abba Father who is a God of miracle and who can make the humanly impossible tasks possible.. Pray for me.. to be joyful and rested.. to be able to finish this project on time... and to pass so that I can graduate... Pray that I will praise Him all the days of my life.. and honour Him as I worship Him with my work.

Once again, God reminded me that when I can't, my God is able. God can.

I'm glad that I've spent my last two hours before I sleep watching a movie. =)
Faith, you ought to chill out a bit...
Good night dear friends....

"Surely goodness and love will follow all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of my Lord forever."

2007-09-26T09:10:00.000+08:00

Farewell to Melissa

Have a good time in the States!

2007-09-16T00:22:00.000+08:00

From my devotional journal
Drew it while meditating on His work on the cross.

When I survey the wondrous cross, on which the Prince of Glory died;

my richest gain I count but loss, and pour contempt on all my pride.

Forbid it, Lord, that I should boast, save in the death of Christ, my God;

all the vain things that charm me most, I sacrifice them to his blood.

See, from his head, his hands, his feet, sorrow and love flow mingled down.

Did e'er such love and sorrow meet, or thorns compose so rich a crown.

Were the whole realm of nature mine, that were an offering far too small;

love so amazing, so divine,

demands my soul, my life, my all.

2007-08-16T06:07:00.000+08:00

Yum yum!

Taken on Singapore's National Day when we had potluck gathering with other couples from church.

Simply love this pic =)

2007-07-26T00:17:00.000+08:00

Happy =) Nothing beats enjoying the best things in life.

Savouring my favourite ice-cream from Gelare.

Wild Strawberry & Brandied Cherries.

Yum Yum.

. Blessed Day . Happy Thoughts .

Today is a joyful and blessed day. It's has been 7 months into my happy relationship with Dearest. Thank God for His grace upon us and His guiding hands as we work on building the foundation of this relationship.

And there are also other reasons why my day has been so good.

It warms my heart to receive 7 sweet smses from Dearest on our 7th month together. Smitten. *Details of smses to be kept highly confidential*

The weather has been superb. Yesterday, while I was walking towards the MRT station after work, it felt like walking in Korea during the beginning of Autumn. It was slightly chilly yet pleasantly comfortable.

Tying a pretty gold symmetrical ribbon that is perfectly horizontally sligned admist all the other chiffon ribbons which I was tying. Tying a perfect ribbon is an art. It takes great patience and skill to make it look beautiful. Was adding the final touches to the cabaret invitation cards which I designed. Looking at the real tangible card is so much prettier than the one I saw on my LCD screen. Satisfied. Boss is pleased. More importantly, the couple is happy too.

Dreaming about my own wedding like a little girl. I have seen much pretty weddings lately and very much inspired to create my very own dream wedding. Was so smitten by a page in a magazine where a tree is beautifully adorned with hanging floral arrangements and candles while the entire aisle on the grass was formed by petals in hues of red and pink. I would like a wedding tree and call that tree 'a tree of love'. =)

Had desserts with Dearest at Fosters Rose Cafe in Holland Village on Sunday. Beautiful English setting... warm and cozy ambience... asked the waitress the seating capacity of that cafe. Won't mind having a wedding celebration in that cafe although only 40 privilege guests could be invited.. but wait a minute, I still want my real wedding tree. Ha!

Just being myself, a little girl hidden in a woman's body, gradually revealing the girlish side of her. My hippo is the best testimony of my child-like nature. Oopes..

2007-07-22T13:57:00.000+08:00

"I encourage you walk closely with the Lord. Begin to set some time specially for our Father. He deserves our attention. Do not put the Lord out of your life which has been blood bought by the Lord on Calvary... ...

I pray that you'll become a better disciple of Jesus each day. C0nsecrate yourself and re-dedicate your life to God for God loves you, His dearest child... ...

In His Love,
Because He first loves me,
Faith Tan"

Chanced upon the draft of a letter to my friend. Wrote this a while back to encourage my friend. What a timely reminder.
Thank you God.

2007-07-22T13:13:00.000+08:00

Orientation Team Gathering 2007

at my secret garden

20 July 2007

We were that bunch of jokers and crazy people who worked very hard and for many hours to make the Orientation of our juniors possible.

We were that army of dreamers and believers who dare to dream and march in common identity with great sense of unity.

We were known as Zaerii, the OGLs of our juniors, who had much fun organising their orientation and befriending this new generation of the Rafflesian Family.

We called the Orientation as Xantheus and my Alduris (OG) is known as Venizar, the clan of elite lizard warriors. Ha.

We still go strong as a team although Xantheus was five and a half years ago.

Enough said. I know, we Rock.

"Come heed the call Rafflesians all

And let out hearts be stirring

We'll do our best whate'er the test

And keep our colous flying

Let comradeship and fervent hope

With one voice make us pray

Auspicium Melioris Aevi

With God to guide the way"

-Raffles Junior College School Anthem

2007-07-22T13:06:00.000+08:00

"Life is short, Live it well."

Dearest became melancholic after he visited his maths tuition teacher in the hospital for the final time before he passed away. This was the maths teacher who used to teach him at least a decade ago. When he saw his teacher who was already in the hospital for the past three months, he couldn't help but to feel sad for someone who would leave anytime. This is the fragility of human life. At one moment, a person could be successful and standing at the prime of his life; at the following moment, the same person could be ailing and coping to sustain his life through medication and tubes which are inserted into his body.

Hence, I say, we only have one life and this life is short and unpredictable, we ought to live each moment of it well. Dearest commented that such a perception towards life is largely secular because for most people there is no life and hope after death. Hence, it is even more necessary for them to maximise this life to the fullest and enjoy every bit of the successes, riches, wealth and luxury lifestyles if these are within their means. Life might then evolves into a lifelong pursuit of better wealth.

Greater wealth >>> Greater satisfaction >>> Greater achievements

I feel that as believers of Christ, we are merely pilgrims of this earth. Our life here is temporal because we have an eternal life after this earthly life. Our time here on earth is merely a passing phase which is also a training phase when the pilgrims gradually walk towards the holy city of God. During this journey as we are heading towards the holy city of God, we would be experiencing transformation that brings us nearer to the image and the character of God which we are intended to be before Man fell.

For me, I recognise that my pilgrimage here is short in relation to my eternal life span and this earthly life ought to be spent well in touching lives and bringing people nearer to Christ, hence an eternal enjoyment of Christ and His love. It's a reminder for me to walk in sync with His steps and be like His disciples who were so bold and fearless in proclaiming His name. As I am already considering the career path I will like to take in the future before I graduate, I am mindful of a lifelong decision to be involved in changing and touching lives. I pray that I could be like Christ, edify and encourage my loved ones and friends (both believers and non-believers) and draw them nearer to their devotion in Christ.

Many are at the doorstep of God's Kingdom. If they are willing to open and cross that door, they shall be saved and experienced the joy of living an eternal life with God. Alternatively, God Himself could be at the doorstep of their hearts. He's knocking on it gently, consistently and patiently. (Revelation 3:20) All that is required for them is to willingly open the doors of their hearts and allow God to enter their lives. We could be that friend who either lead them to the door of His Kingdom and encourage them to enter His Kingdom through that door or lovingly nudge them to bravely open the doors of their hearts and allow the King of all kings to enter into their lives.

Life is short, live it well. Don't waste this life.

2007-07-18T10:03:00.000+08:00

2007-07-17T00:47:00.000+08:00

Somehow along the way, I've chosen a different path, a path less taken, a path less known. I felt this is the kind of journey that I wish to pursue. But, as the demands of life get into me when I begin to work or start looking for a future career, I can't help but to feel inferior sometimes for the kind of career which I would possibly have in the future. When everyone around me is attaining reputable jobs and working in reputable companies, I sometimes feel that I am small in comparison to them. I know I shouldn't feel this way.

Friday is appropraching. Gonna meet my college mates after a long while. Guess most are doing really well, becoming lawyers and doctors and are employed in reowned overseas firms. As for me, I am still a humble student waiting to finish my final year. We all came from the same college but somehow.. I feel I am just not part of that college league. Ha.

My senior bravely moved out of a lucarative career in Architecture to pursue his passion as a graphic designer. He once told me that he has to take MRTs for the rest of his life, and probably some rare occasions of taxis. What he said just reminded me that sometimes our passion would bring us to a different kind of life, one that is less travelled and one that is harder to trod on.

Not easy. Gonna meet my friends who are mostly entering law firms and banks when I have to update my life as an undergraduate who is going on to her final year and most probably not pursuing what she has been studying throughout her university days.

Just some random thoughts. I have to learn to be secured in His promise for me for He has a plan for me, a plan to prosper me and bless me.

2007-07-13T00:06:00.000+08:00

2007-07-12T22:28:00.000+08:00

Here's what I read to prepare myself for CG in the evening and I was ministered by it.
"What is the chief end of man?"
"Man's chief end is to glorify God and to enjoy Him forever."
Paul sums up in Philippians 3:10 the great goal of his life: "I want to know Christ..."

I read the above from "Names of God" by Nathan Stone. It is such a focus and direct reply by Paul, yet it is so profound and difficult to be fully grasped. To know Christ ... truly knowing You Jesus.

Here's what God has spoken while I was praying. He reminded me of His promise once again while I was worshipping Him during cg yesterday.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD.

Jeremiah 29: 11-14

I am reminded of God's promises for me in the future. He has plans for me. He knows His plans - plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future. I know His plans for me would be fulfilled in His timing because "He has made everything beautiful in its time. " Ecclesiastes 3:11 and He will.

Here's my friend's prayer for me which aptly sums up what I've encountered earlier during the day.

"I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorius Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorius inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is like the working of his mighty strength, which he exerted in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms. "

Ephesians 1:17-20

2007-07-12T16:40:00.000+08:00

Fuchun Primary School Anniversary Dinner

Official Opening Ceremony of Fuchun Primary School at its new school campus. There wasn't much for us, the batch that has graduated at least a decade ago, to reminisce since the new campus is foreign to us. There is no longer that familiar big flight of grand staircase which used to lead us from the assembly ground to our classrooms . 'Ever Onward' which used to stand solemnly with great splendour above that grand flight of staircase is nowhere in sight.

I remembered the school for the wonderful teachers, my classmates, the hopscotch, the 'zero-point', the canteen food, and even the 'canon' flowers which adorned the carpark. Somehow, primary school memories are rather vivid as I take them out of my memory safe, bit by bit, and share them with my good old friends. Everyone of us kept a part of the school memories in our personal memory safe. It was a great time of exchange while we ate and laughed at the silly things that we once did with great courage.

It blesses my heart to be back in my primary school, even though the school has now resided at a new location. It blesses my heart to see the positive development of my primary school over the years and my little juniors performing musical in the school hall. It blesses my heart to know that some of the few primary school teachers who used to teach me are still serving in the school.

I'm glad to be a 'Fuchunian' if there's such a word. I am blessed with great teachers who cultivated my interests in the various subjects. When a Korean professor commended me on my command of spoken English, I gladly replied that I had great foundational teachers who taught me the beauty of languages.

It was good to meet my primary school friends. It warms my heart to know that everyone is getting along fine in their lives, one is planning to get married, most are having great careers and a few have met the Lord. And for myself? I am contented and happy to be His princess.

2007-07-12T00:39:00.000+08:00

Grace
By Julie Meyers

My heart is so proud.
My eyes are so unfocused.
I see the things You've done through me
As great things I have done
And now You gently break me.
I cry just like a baby.
You hold me as my Father,
And mold me as my Maker.

At times I may grow weak.
And feel a bit discouraged.
Knowing that someone somewhere
Can do a better job.
For who am I to serve You?
I know, I don't deserve You.
But that's the part, that burns in my heart,
And keeps me hanging on.

As I walk with You, I'm learning
About what Your grace really means.
How all of my transgressions
Were paid at Calvary.
So instead of trying to repay You,
I'm learning to simply obey You.
By giving up my life to You
For all that You've given to me.

[Chorus]
And I ask You
How many times will You pick me up.
When I keep on letting You down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory,
How far will forgiveness abound?
And You answer, " My child, I love you,
And as long as you're seeking My face,
You'll walk in the power of My daily sufficient grace."

What is grace? Grace is when all my transgressions were paid at Calvary. 'So instead of trying to repay You. I'm learning to learning to simply obey You. By giving up my life to You for all that You've given me. '

This song ministers to my heart when I am reminded of His Grace.
Could you imagine yourself meeting God one day and asking Him, "How many times will You pick me up when I keep on letting You down? And each time I will fall short of Your glory, how far will your forgiveness abound?" And He gently replies, "My Child, I love you, and as long as you're seeking My face, you'll walk in the power of my daily sufficient grace. " Isn't that so beautiful? To have the Heavenly King to say.. 'it's alright dear child.. as long as you are seeking my face.. I will still pick you up.. even when you fall short of my glory because my grace is sufficient for you."

Amazing.
That's my God, my Heavenly King. He's my Father. He first loved me and sought me before I found Him.

2007-06-27T23:42:00.001+08:00

Reading God's Holy Blog

Was updating myself with my friend's lives through their blogs, until this thought came to my mind...

Isn't reading the bible is akin to reading God's blog? Maybe it's more beautiful to say, reading the bible is like reading God's love letter for me. Amen.

Time to read more of His love for me.

2007-06-19T11:25:00.000+08:00

This is so Pretty. =)

From SecretGardens

2007-06-16T12:35:00.000+08:00

Interesting Review!

My younger brother and I.

So much has changed in our own lives

but our relationship remains the same.

That same old jie jie with her same cute di di.

Blessed indeed.

2007-06-16T11:39:00.000+08:00

Hey Friends,

Today is a lazy saturday morning. Woke up late enough to be happy about the amount of rest I receive. Weather is cooling and my hippo is still happily in bed. Happy.. Today shall be a happy day. Cheers! =)

I have been missing from the blog for really a long time, nearly a month. I haven't really been free in a manner which makes me feel like blogging. When I do want to pen some thoughts down, blogger.com fail on me.

My life is great. 1 month of my holidays had ended and I spent it away not doing anything substantial, except for resting, going home to spend time with family members, and meeting friends. I allocated 1 month for purely resting and doing some other personal administration stuff, I am glad that I adhere to my plan although I felt that I wasted too much time being unproductive towards the end of that one month. Pace was indeed slow and slack. Guess, it's a well deserved rest after so long. This is my first ever university break which I am not occupied with hall activities.

For some of you who have read about my dream in planning weddings, I am taking my baby steps towards realising my dreams. Prepared a resume and sent it out to a few wedding planning companies in Singapore. Thank God for His providence because most have responded and offered me interviews to meet them in person. It was certainly a great experience talking to the wedding planners. Those interviews/chats gave me gimpses of what wedding planning is like. It is certainly not as glamorous as the movie of a wedding planner depicts. Ha.

Currently, I thank God that a wedding planner offered me an internship and I am currently working with her. I am mostly designing and contributing ideas to make weddings interesting. I will be involved in a few weddings during this internship and I am gladly looking forward to it.

I am glad that I took the first step to move out of my area of study/expertise. Many people have asked my decision in choosing a different path and felt that my skills learnt in Architecture are largely wasted. I gladly replied that I have my dream to pursue and I am not afraid of trying. If not now, when? I won't like to continue with what I am majoring if I realise that I would definitely have more interests in other areas. My skills acquired are not wasted because they could be applied in many different areas of my life. Technical and Graphic skills would not have been nurtured if I did not study Architecture. If I were doing some other courses, I am very sure that I would have less opportunity to be working with graphics and extending my fine art heritage to the digital world.

This internship will give me first hand experiences of working as a wedding planner even though I am merely an assistant. It serves as an important pivotal point in my future career. What I will eventaully become is largely dependent on what I will be seeing during this internship. Friends, if you have dreams which are still dreams, take that one step of faith to try. At least, you have tried, if not dreams will always be dreams.

I thank God for blessing me with this internship. Thank dearest for supporting and encouraging me. Thank hippo for being just with me all the time. I have a new friend who always guards my dreams and sends me to bed, Bedtime Carebear! Happy to be in a lala land. It's my holiday! It' a HAPPY HOLIDAY! Cheers. =)

Faith

2007-05-05T11:21:00.000+08:00

God's Creation. My new found beauty.

2007-04-23T19:57:00.000+08:00

Arangetrum - A Rite of Passage

This is what I have been working on for the past semester. Pretty much explains why I disappear from my blog and msn. Thank God that the project has ended. I am satisfied with the outcome. =)

2007-03-02T22:34:00.000+08:00

Freedom in God's Will

Fluidity within Limitation

2007-02-27T12:49:00.000+08:00

It feels good being his rib. =)

The man said, "This is now bone of my bones
and flesh of my flesh;
she shall be called 'woman'
for she was taken out of man. "

2007-01-30T16:02:00.000+08:00

Memory in Stone

2006-12-29T18:24:00.000+08:00

Allow me to tell you of a story of my friend.

"Strive and Study hard to be the first in class. No. That's not enough. I ought to be the first in cohort!"
Indeed, she studied hard. She was the first in class and cohort when she was in lower secondary.
She lived a life of her own, always immersed in her own world. At 14 years old, her friends did not understand her. She was upset over not getting the last few possible points that she could get, in order that she scored the highest, while her friends were contented with their results.. Some were even struggling to pass.

When she moved up to upper years, she distrusted friendships. She did not understand why the girls in her class were getting emotionally upset, just because their other close girl friends hurt them. Then, she thought that all friends would eventually betray her one day. She felt that as long as she was successful and achieved all distinctions for her O levels, get into a good JC... everything was good for her. She was on her way to becoming a successful person.

Although she led her life alone, sometimes, she yearned to have someone whom she could talk to. The sad truth was, she had no one to turn to. She felt weak at times because she came to a point in her life when she realized that scoring good grades means nothing to her. She fell into a relationship, thought she had found her closest friend whom she could find support and comfort in. But, she fell out of the relationship shortly after that. She was emotionally drained. She was also physically worn out because she was juggling with her own emotional problems and stress that she faced from her other commitments in school. For her, she felt that she would not be happy again for a long while.

Until one day, someone told her this, "God, the Heavenly Father desires you to be his happy child. He would carry your burden on your behalf."
She wept, she thought to herself that she was left with nothing, and she decided to just blindly believe. She acknowledged that she had a Heavenly Father and received Him into her life.

For me, I feel that it could be possibly a very impulsive act and even a sudden irrational move of entrusting one's life into a religious faith because this person seeks to find an immediate relief from the hurts and pain she was struggling with. Yes, it is indeed very impulsive... yes, it is indeed very irrational. But, that leap of faith into a world of unknown has brought her to a life of certainty and assurance because she knows that she has her Heavenly Father, who loves her, comfort her and guides her. She does not regret it, I am sure... because I am that girl.

That was my story before i become a Christian when I blindly believe that an intangible God could possibly take away the hurts and pain which I were feeling. It was very silly from a rational perspective. But if you were in my shoes then, when you feel that you are desperately in need of a relief from all the emotional turmoil, probably believing in the existence of an unseen God could possibly bring about some form of emotional comfort.

And what do I gain out of believing in God and receiving Jesus into my life? I know three things.

1)I understand that I am the child of God. God is my creator while I am His masterpiece. God has established a father and child relationship with me. Like a lovingly father and a purposeful creator, He desires the best for me and has planned a life for me. My life is secured in His hands. My future is not bleak because God has paved his path for me.

Before I was a Christian, I used to believe that I could control my own life. The achievement that I get at the end of the day is primarily dependent on me. However, I later realized that there are many circumstances in life that actually stops me from achieving my goals. There was this time when I worked very hard to complete my architecture project. I spent about 2 weeks working on it. I was looking forward to the completion of it until a few days before my submission, my computer crashed on me. All my hard work has gone to waste.

Being unlucky? My point here is, even if I believed that I could control my own life, there would be times when I can't do anything about my life, because my life is determined by some other circumstances which are beyond my control.

From believing that I could control and shape my own life, I gradually come to realize that it is more likely to believe in a creator who has planned and predestined my life. Now that I have God in my life, I feel very assured and certain of my life now and in the future. There could be a lot of uncertainties in the future but I am assured that my future is in the good hands of my Heavenly Father who loves me and desires the best for me. Because I know that my life has been carefully planned by God, I am sure that God would lead me in His perfect plan.

2) I also realize that there is hope and purpose in life.
I used to ask myself the following questions, "What is the purpose of our existence on earth?" "Why do we have to study so hard and work so hard when we eventually would die one day?" I have even contemplated to commit suicide at the age of 30 after I reach my prime, since after 30 years old would mean suffering and illnesses. These are some philosophical questions that demand a deeper meaning and a purpose out of my life. Do I exist merely to survive? What if one day, things that I hold dear to and I have been working hard for, such as my graduation certificate, my career and my wealth were to disappear from my hand, what then would my life be?

In today’s society, when our self worth and identity are largely determined by our social status and our achievement, is there anything more to life than just a constant pursuit of achievements, from attaining a university certificate to getting a high paying job and finally becoming wealthy?” If life merely revolves around the pursuit of material needs and achievements, what would then happen to one’s life when someone of high social status and great wealth was to face with bankruptcy? We have heard of numerous suicidal cases when the victims ended their lives after their setback. Have you ever wondered why these people committed suicide? They could have felt that they have lost everything and there is no more hope and purpose in their life anymore.
I think it would be very sad to know that one’s purposeful pursuit of a "better life" would eventually brought one to a state of hopelessness and despair when one has been stripped of all the valuable things in one’s life.

Being an achiever was no longer my agenda. I used to be an over achiever in secondary school. I always wanted to prove my worth and abilities by showing the others that I could perform well in my studies and CCA. Now, there isn’t a need for me to prove my own abilities and worth anymore, because I found my identity as a child of God. My self-worth is anchored in God.

3) I have a personal relationship with God. At this juncture, allow me to ask this question, “Why do some of us treasure relationship so much?” I guess it could be part of being a human, there is a deep yearning for companionship and support within ourselves, so that we don’t feel lonely. With friends and dear ones by our side, life becomes mores bearable because we know that we have people around us whom we could relate to.

My Heavenly Father was my steadfast friend. He walked with me in my darkest hour. Last year this time, I was in South Korea for student exchange programme. I felt all alone in the foreign land even though I was with my other course mates. Those course mates whom I thought I could relate to alienated from me for some reasons. I feel a deep sense of loneliness. God was my comforter during that trying period of time. Even when I did not have much physical support, my Heavenly Father was the unchanging friend who was with me throughout my Korea stay. With God, I was not coping with the loneliness alone. He became my listener and refuge.

Maybe some of you might be thinking that my experiences could possibly be my own mental illusions that are self-gratifying and self-comforting. But, I have struggled much with my rationality before I could conclude that my experiences are real and genuine.

Indeed, I have become God’s happy child. I have a purposeful future planned out by God, hence I am not lost. I have my identity anchored in God and I do not have to prove my worth through material possessions. There is greater perspective to my life than just mere existence on earth. I have also God as an unchanging friend who would not abandon me. My step of faith then has allowed me to gain so much which I have never gotten before.

Dear friends, I am sharing my journey with you because I have tasted the sweetness and love of God. I was as disbelieving as some of you here. I was telling my friend, not to become a Christian because they are too holy. I was telling a Christian, that I would not become a Christian then because i would like God to interfere my life because I dislike confusion.

But today, I am glad that God has interfered my life. I am glad that God, who is my creator, has granted me a life which he carefully planned because he desires the best for me. It is the just the same as how some of you might have planned where you would like to place your stained glass painting which you have created. Some plan to place it on the self in the room, on the door or even give it to a friend. God created us as His unique masterpieces, and our lives are tailored made and customised in the most ideal way.

Here is God inviting you to become His child. Always remember that his hand is always by your side, waiting patiently for you to grab hold of it because he is always willing to walk together with you through thick and thin, in your life on earth.

I pray that one day, you would share the same kind of joy that I am experiencing now.

Testimony shared during ECF stainglass painting workshop. All glory and honour to my Heavenly King.

2006-12-23T13:59:00.000+08:00

Building my castle in the Air.

Lately, my colleagues have been asking me if I would return to DP Architects in the future after I graduate. Some even naturally assume that I would go back to my firm for future internship programmes. Seriously, I don't know. I guess, most likely not.

I give thanks because God has granted me this opportunity to intern this firm and allowed me to have a renewed perspective towards architecture. I know I have the interest. There might even be a slight possibility that I will be working as an architect one day.

However, I realise that I have greater interests in other areas. I love painting, organising events and design graphics such as cards and newsletters. Just watched little snippets of Project runway from youtube and was very very much inspired to even become a fashion designer too.

A sudden thought came into my mind. If I had the opportunity and the resources, I know I will pursue fashion design even if I have reached the age to walk to school with a walking stick. I have so many things that I want to do in life. But sometimes one could be limited by time and other priorities. Sometimes, I wish I have the burning desire of some artists who leave everything they have behind just to pursue their passion for the arts. Even if it means reducing to a frugal lifestlye and putting their family and hometown aside, they would still do it because their passion is so strong that they would regret if they don't pursue it. I pray to have the explosive passion of such artists.

Realistically speaking, I know I can't because I have my family here and I still need to support my parents. I know I can't leave them behind.

I had another conversation with a friend over msn. That msn conversation brought me to a realisation that I have actually organised and co-ordinated alot of class performances, parties, events, orientaion programmes while I was schooling before the University days. Even now, I am still organising events for hall and have taken on more influential and direction deterministic roles in the main committees. My favourite event in University that I have organised has to be the Freshmen Orientation Camp which I was heading it with another friend. In particularly, I liked the final dinner that was designed as a picnic style under the stars. Beautiful it was, and the freshmen remembered it and found it especially memorable.

I enjoy planning all these activities although I experienced much frustration, inefficieny, miscommunications... during the planning stages. However, it's just so amazing and satisfying when I could see what I imagine becoming real before my eyes. My friend said that it's not easy to co-ordinate and plan. But somehow, I am usually enthusiastic when I am given the chance to organise and plan an activity.

I love beautiful things. I love imagining beautiful things. I would certainly like to create all these beautiful images in my mind and make them become a reality. That's why I know.. If I don't try learning to become a wedding planner, it would possibly be one of the bigger regrets of my life down the memory lane in the future.

I won't want to reminise to my dear grandchildren and say "I dreamed of becoming a wedding planner. But it was only a dream."

Live life to the fullest. Live it with no regret and pursue one's dreams, if the Lord permits.

2006-12-22T17:38:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas! =)

2006-12-21T16:24:00.000+08:00

How would your Christmas be?

City sidewalks
Busy sidewalks
Dressed in holiday style
In the air there's
A feeling of Christmas
Children laughing
People passing
Meeting smile after smile
And on every
Street corner you'll hear

Silver Bells, Silver Bells
It's Christmas time in the city
Ring-a-ling, hear them sing
Soon it will be Christmas Day

One of my favourite Christmas tunes. Could imagine how the silver bells ring in the snow and glitter in the white. Christmas is around the corner and I see shoppers everywhere, doing their last bit of shopping before Christmas arrives. It’s just so amazing to see people queuing in chocolate and candy shops, kind of reminded me the queues in Chinatown outside “Ling Zhi Yuan Bak Quah” shop during the Lunar New Year season. Ha.

Could still remember how I spent my last two Christmas. Two years back, I spent it with a friend. Went for a Christmas Eve service with my friend to his friend’s church and headed down to Boat Quay after that. It was a night of endless walking and undetermined destination. We walked as we talked until we passed by this beautiful alfresco drinking place besides Empress Place. I was enchanted by its beauty, its night lightings and a melodic female voice which is woven into the music of a string musical instrument. We stopped our endless walk and settle in Indochine. The talk continued till wee hours.

Last year’s Christmas was spent in South Korea with my group of Singaporean classmates. It was an unique experience because I finally have the opportunity to celebrate a White Christmas. South Korea is a snowing country and is very cold during the winter. Wrapped in our thick layers of clothing (in our gloves, scarves, coats), all of us went to “Myeongdong”, a shopping district that is popular among the youths. The streets were crowded. It was difficult to move and we could easily lose each other if we weren’t careful. There was a unofficial cake selling competition as different shops reduced the prices of the Christmas cakes on that night, so that their cakes could be sold out fast. Somehow, the Koreans do not eat log cakes. The cakes that were sold are the typical cakes that we buy for our birthdays here in Singapore.

My friends and I shared an ice cream cake from Baskin Robins and headed down to an archaic catholic cathedral within the district. It was a monumental building which evoked a deep sense of spirituality when I was sitting quietly in the cathedral. I could remember the images of people lighting candles outside the cathedral and the veiled women who were praying in the cathedral.

Yesterday, I was in bus 171, traveling towards Plaza Singapura to meet a friend for movie. The traffic was slowing moving and I was feasting my eyes with the Christmas lightings along Orchard Road. Took out my camera and managed to take a few shots while the bus was waiting for the traffic light to turn green. It was a beautiful sight.

Wondering how this year’s Christmas would be like. I guess spending it by myself is probably the best Christmas celebration. It’s time of the year to reflect and keep track of the blessings from my Heavenly Father who lovingly shower upon me, a wretched child. Amazing Grace indeed.

Have a blessed Christmas!
Christ Jesus is the reason for this season. =)

2006-12-21T09:47:00.000+08:00

It has been raining for the past few days. Reminds me a little bit of the time when I was in South Korea last year. The chilling weather, the dark skies and the experience of staying in my room while sipping a cup of hot chocolate/tea/coffee (depending on my mood)… Certainly, the sight of snow is so much more attractive than the raindrops. But, the raindrops orchestrate refreshing and exciting music that the snow is unable to do. The rain seems to have this innate hidden music talent which takes one to slowly discover it.

I was learning to discover the music talent of the rain two days back when the sky rained incessantly throughout the whole day. It was one of those rare nights when I got back early to hall after work.

After I showered, I comfortably sat on my stool (although it’s not a cushioned seat) and dimmed the lights in my room. Only the light from the screen of my laptop and my table lamp illuminated my small cozy room (visual estimation of 3 by 3m) in hall. Hugging my hippo would have been the best thing to do at that moment, but I decided to avoid my bed and hippo because I needed to sketch for the night.

I closed my eyes and immersed myself in the symphony of the raindrops pattering against the ground. Feeling the cooling weather and smelling the air, I was also enjoying the silence in my room, only being accompanied by the symphony outside my window. My heart was still and serene.

Found myself humming to a tune of a song and eventually praised my Saviour with that song. Prayed for a while and basked myself in His presence.

It was a beautiful night.

Beautiful Lord, Wonderful savior

I know for sure all of my days are held in your hands

Crafted into your perfect plansYou gently called me into your presence

Guideing me by Your Holy Spirit

Teach me dear Lord to live all of my life

Through your eyes

I'm captured by your holy calling

Set me apart. I know you're calling me to yourself

Teach me, Lord. I pray

Take me, mold me, use me, fill me

I give my life to the potter's hand

Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me

I give my life to the potter's hand

The song, "The Potter's hands", resonated in my heart while I was singing it. His choice of song reminds me His love and gentle hands upon me. He has crafted a beautiful plan for me in the days to come. This is His promise which is my assurance and hope. Thank you Lord.

2006-12-19T18:14:00.000+08:00

Fellowship of Christian Students 1 (FCS1), a ministry which belongs to International Fellowship of Evangelical Students, is set up to advance the Kingdom of God in Mongolia.
The goals of FCS1 are to preach the gospel of Christ among University students, to bring people to the Kingdom of God through the influence of graduates and to send out missionaries.

Varsity Christian Fellowship (VCF) has committed to supporting FCS1 in prayer and in monetary pledging.

Monetary Support
All profits raised will be part of the pledging of VCF to support their ministry in the following areas.
1) FCS1 student center (rent, utilities and maintenance.)
2) Ministry (food during fellowship, outreach events, fee subsidies for students at retreat, etc.)
3) Pioneering effort in another Mongolian city, Darkhan.

Prayer Support
1) Mongolian National University
• Pray for the preparation works that has to be done for the movement into FCS1’s new focus school.
2) Staff and students
• Pray that the staff would serve the students well even in the midst of busyness.
• Pray for the training of the 3 new staff.
• Pray for the discipleship of the students.

Each pack of cards (inclusive of all 4 designs) costs $4. The cost of your one meal could bless the Christian workers and non-Christians in Mongolia. Why not be a blessing to them?

Please contact me for enquiry and the purchase of cards.

2006-12-18T00:38:00.000+08:00

Be Thou My Vision

Be thou my vision, oh Lord of my heart

Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art

Thou my best thought, by day or by night

Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light

Be thou my wisdom and Thou my true word

I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord

Thou my great Father, and I Thy true son

Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one

High King of heaven, my victory won

May I reach heaven's joys , O bright heaven's sun

Heart of my own heart, whatever befall

Still be my vision, O Ruler of all

A very powerful hymn that succintly speaks of one's desire to be close to the Lord.

Hear this my prayer oh Lord.

Be thou my vision, oh Lord of my heart.

Amen.

2006-12-16T09:26:00.000+08:00

I have been busy.
Here are some updates

I was working on a few design projects. As seen earlier in my post, those are the stuff that I was doing.

I designed 4 different kinds of note cards which would be sold in packs of 4 to raise fund for a ministry in Mongolia. It is a ministry to reach out to the university students and grauduates in Mongolia. Spent about 1 week working on them and rushing them out for print. For those who are keen in purchasing them and supporting the ministry, please approach me. The cards are priced at $4 per pack. Each pack contains all 4 designs. The cost of your lunch could bless the ministry workers and non-christians in Mongolia. Why not be that blessing?

Took 2 days of break after I sent the cards to print. After that, I continued with the design of my friend's wedding programme bulletin (the drafts are seen in the earlier post). It is an interesting project because the couple likes it to be raw, rustic, recycled and unfinished. Creating an unfinished piece of work is difficult. They wanted to spend minimal for the wedding programme bulletin. It's really fun designing for them. I opted to design everything in black (so that the bulletins could be photocopied) and photocopy them on brown recycled papers. The bulletins turned out beautiful. The bride and groom were satisfied. I love it too! =)

After the bulletin was done, I was partying for 1 week continuously with my friends. Met many people from different social groups for dinner after work for one week. It's really great meeting these people but I was worn out at the end of the week. Of course, I was also pretty concern of my weight for eating so much within that week and not running at all.

Now, I have just begun with my hall production sets designing. Hohoho, no joke. Not easy at all when the script is not completed. Sets construction is going to start soon and not much has been designed yet. Not that positive for now, but i guess things would just turn out fine. I am quite tired by now to keep myself moving ahead and initiating the sets design. Taking a back seat for the moment to rest and pamper myself.

Ha.. And Christmas is around the corner! hee. Gonna be busy with more parties and evangelistic events. My friend shares the same sentiments as me when I told him that Christmas is a busy season more than a holidaying one. Spend more time on the phone sending smses away to invite the non-christians to various evangelistic activities. Would be attending 1 same musicals for 2 separate nights because both groups of my non-christian friends are available on different nights. Next week, I already have 2 consequtive Christmas celebration before the 24th. Ha.. Kailin said that I am too happening for good.

Am I tired? Yes I am. Work in the day and other activities at night... It's fulfilling but tiring. Oh well, what's new? I always have too much to feast on my plate. hee....

2006-12-16T08:49:00.000+08:00

Closing my eyes and enjoying the rest after one busy week. Listening to the Christmas songs while typing this away. It's one of those mornings when I feel like pening down my thoughts and things on my heart but I do not know what to write. No theme in mind.

It's just a beautiful morning to temporary move away from the hective life and experience the serenity and peace.

My heart is still while my lips hum and celebrate the christmas to come. My eyes are closed, while I type this and listen to the silence around me. =)

Good Morning!
Today will be a beautiful day!

2006-12-02T02:31:00.000+08:00

2006-11-30T00:00:00.000+08:00

2006-11-28T11:15:00.000+08:00

This brightens my day. =)

I feel like a little girl... momentarily.

Smiling at this pretty picture

for its sweet simplicity and absurdity.

Like what I, as a little girl, used to dream.

2006-11-25T23:56:00.000+08:00

2006-11-21T00:47:00.000+08:00

A pure white tulip stained in red,

Lay in the Father's hand;
A gift for which His son sacrificed,
That brought the rift to an end.
To mend the gap between Him and Man.
The price was the life of One.
But for each life, restored white again,
It only takes the Son.

Image prepared for Eusoff Christian Fellowship Stainglass painting workshop.

Words by redbean Jon, the skribbler.

Special thanks to Calvin for his creative directions.

2006-11-12T01:18:00.000+08:00

An Eventful Morning.

Today, for the very first time in my 4 years here in NUS, that I actually woke up early and jogged to West Coast Park. Praise the Lord! Praise Him because I managed to wake up and have my morning jog.

Today, also for the very first time that I was almost run down by a lorry. I had encountered such incidents in the past when I was walking across roads but the drivers were alert and they slowed down their vehicle. If not, I wouldn't have been blogging this entry today. The incident today happened when I was jogging across the road (this time I was clearly awake and sure that I could cross the road because the 'green man' was running). Here came the lorry which was making a turn. The driver was shocked and he stepped on his brakes immediately while I was stunned momentarily and continued with my jog across the road while pointing to the traffic green man to him.

It was amazing how I was not frighten. At the moment, I could have been knocked down and run over by the vehicle. I guarantee, you won't see me again, smiling and prancing around like a hippo anymore. However, the thought of it after the incident was really scary. It brought me to two clear points.

1) I could be gone from this world anytime, without any prior warning. I could have died from an accident which would be beyond my prediction. Life is just so fragile. One moment I could be breathing, talking and prancing around; the next moment I could be dead. SCARY!

2) But the good news is, my life is assured in the Lord's hands. Immediately after I ran across the road, I laughed to myself jokingly that the Lord still has alot of things for me to do on earth and He won't allow me to die so easily. Ha. My time is not up yet. Our God protects us from danger and harm because in His divine plan and timing, He has a purpose for us on earth. If he hasn't allowed me to leave, I am very certain I have greater purpose on earth because God values me and desires me to serve Him longer on earth. Thank you Lord for you have counted me worthy. =)

Thank God for the lorry incident because I am reminded of your great plans for me on this earth. Although you have yet to reveal your plans to me, I am thankful that I have this VIP treatment and special privilege to serve you, my King. =)

It was a beautiful morning. As I was jogging in West Coast Park, I was immersing myself in the beautiful creation of God. The vast blue sky against the luscious green, the people exercising, a little young girl trying to jog with her Mama while her Mama tried to encourage her by running slightly faster so that the girl would always be chasing after her Mama... Such beautiful sights. I was very blessed. Remember vividly that while I was running in between some trees by the sides of a jogging track, leaves gently fell from the trees when the wind blew.. I was suddenly brought back to Korea where I experienced and enjoyed the beautiful fall when the dried leaves fell on me as I walked by the trees. So enchanting.

After the jog, I cooled myself down and settled my heart down to spend some time with God. Was sitting somewhere, and there were many aunties and uncles sweeping the park around me. I was praying and thanking God for His provision in the past week. Eventually, I was led to pray for the aunties and uncles around me. I was wondering in my mind, "have they heard the gospel?"

My friend once commented that the majority of the Christians belong to the above average income group and there are still many people in Singapore, especially the poor and the lowly educated, are not Christians. I am just thinking if we have neglected these people. I am sure God wouldn't have neglected them. But, as Christians, could we be more proactive in reaching out to these people, to the wanderers who have no home and sleep in various nooks and corners of Singapore (in parks, underpass or just on a bench in CBD), to the very very poor people who are hidden away in this Singapore society and are not widely known, to the elderly who have no other kin and live by themselves all alone, to the road sweepers and the aunties/uncles who clear our plates in foodcourts and fastfood restaurants... Have they heard the gospel? Have the gospel been shared with them?

Isn't it saddening to know that these people who live in this world quietly in their own unconsipicuous corners which are hidden, tugged away and casted in the shadows of economic progress as the Society develops , have no access to the gospel and eventually perish because they are not granted the opportunity to hear the gospel. Here is a group of people who are both physically and spiritually poor and lack of resources. They need the gospel even more urgently. We would never know, they might be a group of people who are genuinely in search of a direction and comfort in life. Lord Jesus Christ could possibly be that comforter, if and only if, the gospel of Jesus is preached to them.

Yesterday, some members of CG shared on their burdens for overseas missions. I have yet to have such burdens for overseas missions. I recognise that Singapore is an affluent, open and fortunate society and there are poorer places in other countries. I recognise the privilege to worship openly and share the gospel unrestrictedly in Singapore while Christians from other countries have to worship behind close doors and share the gospel quietly and discretely because the people are forbidden by the authorities to share their Christian faith.

As much as we would like to emphasize on overseas missions since the people are less privileged than us and they need to hear the gospel, local missions shouldn't be undermined and lowly emphasized. There are still the under privilege people in Singapore who have yet to hear Jesus.

Probably, God is moulding me and leading me into His mission field in Singapore. I do not know. But I trust that He would reveal His plans to me in His time. Even though I question if the under privilege people in Singapore have heard of the gospel and lament to some extent that they might have been forgotten, I will trust God and His promises.

Matthew 24:14
And this gospel of the kingdom WILL be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, AND THEN the end will come.

Apostle Paul's dedication to mission has always encouraged me.

Romans 15:20-20
It has always been my ambition to preach the gospel where Christ was not known, so that I would not be building on someone else's foundation. Rather as it is written: "Those who were not told about him will see, and those have not heard will understand."

He wanted to preach the gopel to people who have not heard of Jesus Christ, so that those who have not heard about Jesus Christ whould have the opportunity to know Him and receive God's gift of salvation.

2006-11-07T15:03:00.000+08:00

Creative Talk

Basking under the sun. Wading in the pool. Out on a deck? Not quite.

Internal Office Deck

Vanilla Ice cream or Cream coloured Marble?

Tasteful

Build outside the box.

2006-10-31T18:42:00.000+08:00

2006-10-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

Knees to the Earth

Wonderful Savior
My heart belongs to Thee
I will remember always the blood You shed for me
Wonderful Savior
My heart will know Your worth
So I will embrace You always as I walk this earth

Be blessed, be loved, be lifted high
Be treasured here
Be glorified
I owe my life to You my Lord
Here I am....

Beautiful Jesus
How may I bless Your heart?
Knees to the earth I bow down to everything You are
Beautiful Jesus
You are my only worth
So let me embrace You always as I walk this earth

2006-10-25T22:03:00.000+08:00

The curtain closes, the lights dim and the music fades away.
She walks out of the stage. As she leaves the stage, she puts away her impersonated self. Gradually, she returns to her small confort corner in her familiar self. This is her daily routine.

She masks her true self from the outside world. She hides herself away from the people around her. When the mask which she faithfully wears everyday is removed, a feeling of loneliness creeps into her unknowingly. She has gotten so comfortable with it that it has become her good friend. She likes being accompanied by loneliness.

Fiercely independent she may seem, but she deeply yearns for some form of reliance and emotional support. Although she enjoys being with herself, she also desires to be part of a clique. Ha. That's a dream. She finds herself not belonging to anywhere. She finds herself lost in the myraid of faces.

She longs to go home.

2006-10-23T00:21:00.000+08:00

My Night in Singapore Art Museum

Soaked in the flamboyance of painted canvases.
Immersed in the rich and overflowing concepts and minds of the grreat artists behind their creation.
My Favourite is "when faith moves the mountain".
A Brilliant Experience.
Beautiful.

2006-10-16T17:38:00.000+08:00

"Lord, make me a crisis man. Let me not be a milepost on a single road, but make me a fork that men must turn one way or another in facing Christ in me. "
Jim Elliot wrote this prayer at the age of twenty-one

"Lord, make me a crisis man. When I heard those words, I knew I too wanted to grow up to be such a man. I wanted to be a crisis man for Jesus Christ.

And so I have spent my whole life on the lookout to develop and implement the best ways to convey the compelling message of the gospel of Jesus Christ. Along the way, however, I’ve come to discover one of the greatest challenges within the evangelism process: to find and strike that important balance between presenting the truths of the Bible with boldness and clarity while, at the same time, keeping my treasured friendships with seekers safely intake. My hope and dream has always been to spiritually impact genuine care and concern for those friends no matter how they respond. And still to this day, my aim is to initiate conversations about spiritual matters in such a way that my relationships flourish and thrive, not falter. "

Adapted from "Seekers Small Group" by Gary Poole

Lord, make me a crisis girl. I desire to be a crisis girl for Jesus! How I wish that each non-believing friend who has interacted with me would eventually be shaken out of their status quo and be provoked positively to reflect on his/her purpose of existence in this temporal world. I pray that those who have met me would be brought into deep thoughts regarding matters of spiritual faith. I do not want to be a milepost on a road. I desire to be a fork that men must face one way or another in facing Christ in me.

My heart resounds with what Gary Poole has written. I desire to touch lives and share the gospel of Christ with my non-believing friends. I desire to spend time and establish genuine relationships with the people around me, so that they could witness the influence of Jesus in my life. I pray that through my friendships with my non-believing friends, Jesus could touch their lives through the words that I speak and through the deeds that I do.

I believe that it is necessary to invest time in the lives of the non-believers. When I spend time and establish relationships with them, I could preach the gospel to them more comfortably as they are more willing and receptive to listen. I could share my testimony with them as a friend who is inviting them to a door of everlasting love, grace and blessings. If they trust and have faith, they might just be opening the door which you lead them to, stepping across the line of faith and entering into a life of eternal happiness.

Isn’t it beautiful to meet your friend in heaven one day and stroll along the beautiful garden above with him? Then, I know that my time and effort spent with that friend when I was on earth are worthwhile.

My Personal Challenge
For me, I am mindful of stepping out of my comfort zone. I have inertia to establish friendships with people, especially to the strangers around me. I admit that I do not break ice easily and greet everyone and anyone whom I meet on the street or the corridor of my dormitory. I know I tend to gather among my Christian friends and some of my closer Non-Christian friends. Holy huddle syndrome... Probably? I ought to learn how to say hi and smile to people whom I am unfamiliar with. I could greet a flower by the road and flash my brightest smile to my dearest hippo softtoy, why couldn't I do it to people?

Lord, Teach me how to love people whom I do not love and know.

2006-10-16T16:58:00.000+08:00

Meditative Rose

Salvador Dali

2006-10-16T14:50:00.000+08:00

“Use a ‘thing’ to describe yourself.”
What a commonly asked question as people begin to break the ice within a group of strangers!

My favourite description of myself would be a coffee bean. It is bitter when bitten but it produces a fragrant aroma when it is brewed with a slow fire.

One small coffee bean contains much resemblance to my character and personality. I am like a coffee bean because I take time to warm up and brew. I require a rather long time to be assimilated to a strange environment and be comfortable with the strangers whom I would eventually call them as friends.

I am also as bitter as coffee bean for most of the people who have their first encounters with me because my unfriendly and fierce facial expression makes me unapproachable. However, I could possibly be very much lovable when people spend time to know me, similar to a coffee bean that needs adequate time to brew into a cup of aromatic coffee which is fragrantly pleasant to many coffee lovers.

Speaking of coffee, I like my freshly brewed hazelnut latte and almond coffee to be lightly bitter… what about you?

2006-10-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

A Glimpse of Heaven
EH - TH Fellowship

I don't usually write on His ministry in Eusoff Hall. This could probably be my first post.. and I hope there will be more in the future.

Eusoff Hall Christian Fellowship met up with Temasek Hall Christian Fellowship last week during the mid-sem break for a gathering. It was a simple gathering when we met at Michelle's place for card games and yummy dinner prepared by Michelle's mama. I arrived late because I had to work. I was tired when I arrived. But, I was truly blessed after I left.

I was blessed because I get to meet and befriend brothers and sisters in Christ from the neighbouring hall. I was blessed because it is the beginning of a closer relationship between EH and TH. I was blessed because God has assured me that EH CF is not alone in her service to the Lord, TH CF is serving the Lord with us. We are serving together united in Christ. Thank you Lord for the TH CFers. =)

The gathering gave me a glimpse of what it would be like in the future and onwards when I meet my Lord and other brothers and sisters in Heaven. It was a great time of rest and fun interacting with one another during the gathering. I could imagine that the same would occur when I am in Heaven. In fact, I believe the joy of gathering around our God and worshiping Him would be more intensified than I could imagine. =)

After this I looked and there before me was a great multitude that no one could count, from every nation, tribe, people and language, standing before the throne and in front of the Lamb. They were wearing white robes and were holding palm branches in their hands. And they cried out in a loud voice:

"Salvation belongs to our God, who sits on the throne, and to the Lamb."

All the angels were standing around the throne and around the elders and the four living creatures. They fell down on their faces before the throne and worshiped God, saying

"Amen! Praise and glory and wisdom and thanks and honour and power and strength be to our God forever and ever. Amen!"

Revelation 7:9-12

2006-10-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

God's Work for Me

I have been quiet on my blog these few days. Life has taken on another turn in my journey here on planet earth. I started my first ever architecture internship programme in Singapore. I am currently interning in DP architects at marina square. For those who are nearby, do drop me a message and I could lunch or hang out with you after work.

My work place is really pleasant. Praise God and Thank Him for His provision. I did not actively seek for this job and I certainly wasn’t very keen to work in DP architects (because I heard that OT is very very very common…). Now that I have already set foot into this firm, I could adequately debunk most of the things that I hear about this firm and gladly say that I have a brilliant working environment. I give thanks because it’s all by His divine appointment and arrangement that He has granted me a good team in DP with friendly team mates and superb team leaders and boss. I couldn’t have asked for more because I was certainly not expecting such kind of desirable treatment and working experience in an architecture firm.

My friend used to work in this team. She enjoyed her stay here as well. The working experience is largely dependent on the team members. Thank God because there are a few Christians in this team which largely explains the wonderful working atmosphere within this team. My big big boss, Mr Chan, director of the firm and my immediate team leader are Christians. Among the others, I find out that 2 of them are Christians too! Rejoice!

I have begun work for 4 weeks and I have yet to stay overtime for work. I am helping a team in preparing for their presentation which is due in another 2 weeks time. I enjoy being an intern, serious. There is great exposure and the current intern experience thus far has widened my perspective of architecture and given me a first hand experience of the real architecture world and the operations of an architecture firm. In addition, I could also learn from architects when I could listen to design discussion and understand how experienced architects design.

Do keep me in prayer. Pray that I could be a blessing to others in my short stay of 3 months. Pray also that I could be a witness for Christ. Pray for divine opportunities when I could speak of His goodness to others and share the gospel with them. Finally, please also pray for wisdom so that I would know how to manage a working lifestyle with other miscellaneous activities. I desire to walk a slower pace and not rush mindlessly to attend to various activities.

2006-09-08T09:40:00.000+08:00

Why man rejects God?

A man rejects God neither because of intellectual demands nor because of the scarcity of evidence.

A man rejects God because of a moral resistance that refuses to submit his need for God.

Ravi Zacharias

My Prayer is that my loved ones, family members & friends, would break out of their individual moral resistances and become willing and broken to usher Jesus into their lives.
Hear my prayer O Lord. I trust that you'll answer my desperate cry. I believe.

2006-09-02T12:11:00.000+08:00

Pray
Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. Colossians 4:1

"No man is greater than his prayer life. The pastor who is not praying is playing; the people who are not praying are straying. The pulpit can be a shop window to display one’s talents; the prayer closet allows no showing off.
Poverty-stricken as the Church is today in many things, she is most stricken here in the place of prayer. We have many organizers, but few agonisers; many players and payer, few pray-ers; many singers, few clingers; lots of pastors, few wrestlers; many fears, few tears; much fashion, little passion; many interferers, few intercessors; many writers but few fighters.
Failing here, we fail everywhere."

Leonard Ravenhill

2006-08-29T12:33:00.000+08:00

Agro Navis
The Ship of Dreams

Sketches of the Past, Portrait of the Future
It is often said that Dreams possess a certain kind of power that we should revere. It may be wise for one to go further and pursue the nature of this 'power' that Dreams are said to possess.

Perhaps an example might serve the pirpose of this enquiry best. Suppose one possesses the dream to one day built a magnificent ship. Let's call him Karl. Karl has the dream of building a magnificent ship ever since he was a young boy. Now, it may be interesting to note, that all he possesses in this initial dreams of his are perhaps rough and vague ideas of the magnificent ship that he is going to built. He may know how his ship is going to look like, but he does not know every single detail that is require to build a ship. Such are the nature of dreams. They start out as these vague, but mysteriously beautiful things that somehow motivate people to pursue them.

Let's return to Karl. Now, as Karl gradually grows older (and if he continues to pursue his dream), more details begin to fill up his idea of the magnificent ship that he dreams to built. For example, upon learning the different types of mechanisms that power a ship later in life, Karl chooses the one he likes best and adds it into his dream ship. Eventually (as more details re added into Karl's dream ship) the dream becomes a possibility.

With this possibility comes the transformation of a dream into a reality. Of course, the ship does not magically appear once the dream becomes a possibility. Karl still has to continually pump in effort. If he does so, the ship that once existed in dreams gradually becomes reality.

So what exactly is the power of dreams? Well, they start out as rough sketches of something we want, but under the right conditions, these rough sketches become a powerful portrait of the future... some might even call it a prophecy: they foretell how things are going to be. Such is the power of dreams.

Sketches of the Past, Portrait of the Future. Doesn't that sound exactly what our Rag team has achieved. Our ship that once existed in sketches has now become a reality! =)

Photography of my Friend Jared, please visit

http://darej.multiply.com/photos/album/78

For you tube videos, please visit

http://youtube.com/watch?v=38FvIV_yHJA

http://youtube.com/watch?v=9jSyaGcLimw

2006-08-25T15:48:00.000+08:00

The Long overdued entry in the Rag diary from Chief D.

With the main committee. Me, Dae, Had & CC.

Budiman Family

With EHOC-ers 04/05. Sheauyann, KY & I.

With Programmer Vice-head Zhongying.

With my school bag engineer. Huiying & I.

Rag Buddies. Rag 04/05 & 05/06.

My Design Team. Regina, Jiamei, Me & Molly. =)

With Flag Head Elisabeth.

With my wardrobe ic Welly.

With Siew Ling, my ex-wardrobe mistress.

Long overdued Rag photo.

These are the people who guard the ship, their fruit of labour.

Dearest Raggers,

I look back at the three months of experience with gratitude and thanksgiving. I wanna thank each and everyone of you for making this Rag committee so so special, VERY special indeed. I feel like an old senior reminising at the good old times we had in Rag although Rag day was only last saturday. I admit, I feel old most of the times. Really don't know how to integrate myself into your midst when everyone is so energetic and young. Haha.. Age is catching up on me.. But, a big thank you because I feel much younger after being with you.

While I was resting at 3am on Rag day to prepare myself before the narration, I lied awake on the bed for 45 minutes. The dance music kept repeating in my mind. I knew I was excited, excited for that very moment when Eusoff presents her fruit of labour. I am very satisfied with what we have done. I am very proud of the float, the dancers and all of you, raggers.. On many occasions, I withheld my tears when I saw the sideprops and float were placed together. I never have truly grasped the value and meaning of seeing our sketches transforming into reality until I personally witness the "bulb" of the lighthouse danced high with the disco sailor music. I was sitting beside Jiamei, and jiamei commented that it looked exactly the same as what we have imagined and designed. I said that it was unbelievable because we managed to keep the whole float so true to its initial design intentions. What can I say about all these? If it hadn't been the hard work and effort of all of you, we wouldn't have made it so exceedingly far. Well done raggers, you've made our dreams come true.

This was what I mass sent to the main commers and Sheauyann while I was awake,
"I lied awake with the dance music kept repeating in my mind. I am excited. Thank you for making my dreams come true. Even if we don't win, I know we have already won the race. I feel like a victor."

To Sheauyann, THANK YOU! Really glad that we've become closer after this rag committee. I am so thankful that you are with me throughout this journey. I am very fortunate to have someone like you who is my listening ear and who has seen Rag for as long as I do. Thank you for being the EHOC head. You did a brilliant job. With the amount of problems that you face in EHOC committee, you managed to survive victoriously. Your innate power is really unbelievably strong. You are an inspiration and a brilliant leader. I have indeed learnt alot from you. You've been a great mentor. -Pat on the back-

To my dearest MAIN-COMMERS. Hadrian, thanks for being so clear minded and a people's person. I am very thankful for your sensitivity towards the people in the committee. Many times, you are the mediator.. I remembered when you were easing the tension between Jiamei and I when we have disparate concerns over the gears. I always like to see you laugh. When you laugh, it's very hilarious.. Your cool and aloof image is usually damaged when you broke into bolts of laughter. Taukay, you are always Taukay.Thanks for the leadership. Thanks for being the people's man.

Cherchin thanks for being the "meeting" man. Thanks for sorting all the treasury matters and constantly meeting with RF and Master on behalf of the Rag committee. Hadrian, Daemon and I have always been very thankful for your unique presence in the committee. You are one who emphasizes on the virtue of thriftiness and who challenges the norm. Yes, you are indeed very encouraging and super optimistic. I have learnt much from you. You never fail to amuse me when you asks "Do you think building a float is like playing with Legos?". Ha.

Finally, my dear Chied E Dae. Thank you for a great partnership! I wanna thank you for constantly amusing me. You always make me laugh. I really really enjoyed working with you and exchaing views on certain things. You have your interesting life story and perspectives and they are always very funny. You should seriously consider becoming a comedian, if not.. join DP as a director! haha..

To Ms. Administrator Sze Phing, Kudos to you for all the good lobangs and sponsorships that you have helped us to get. You are very resourceful and efficient. Remembered that when I requested for the sweetened tofu, you actually got it for me within a very short period of time.. Just in time for the Tofu designer's birthday! haha.. I have faith in you that the claims would be cleared fast and we would get back our money soon. Hahaha

To my designers, I really wouldn't have survived without all of you! We've been through so much and coped with so much ups and downs. yes, the designer team is small. we have no costume designer, no static display designer. we have 3 float designers (only 1 with experience in float building and designing) and me, the CHIEF who is totally clueless in leading a team of float designers. Hahaha.. But I know I am very fortunate to have all three of you who are very dedicated and have not given me a slightest bit of problem. I knew I could trust all three of you. Wanna thank Molly for sustaining so long in designing the ship and executing it. Difficult job I must say, it must have been tough since you have stared at it for such a long long time. Regina girl, do you know how brilliant you are with recycled materials? Junks that go into your hands would miraculously transformed into art! Yes, you are the singapore most sought after Craftman. Best in Singapore & JB, some even say Batam!

Jiamei, I thank you for leading the rag team and being my best assistant. You have been an inspiration. Constantly inspiring and encouraging your fellow raggers. Your determination is very admirable. I have alot of fun discussing with you on concepts. You are "CHIM" and I am glad that I could engage in interesting design discourse with you. You have challenged me in matters regarding design. I respect your fervour for design. Thank you for igniting the lost passion that I once have for design. I guess my greatest joy is to see you change and grow in this Rag committee. You stepped into the interview and told me that you want to learn how to work with people and establish better working relationships with others. Jiamei, you could have possibly be one of the toughest person whom I have ever worked with (because I am usually the hardest person to be dealt with in a committee. HA.), I am glad to see how you've grown from your rag experience, much much better with working with your engineers and peers. I am proud of you, and I am sure your MAMA is proud of you when she appeared while you were instructing the side prop carriers during the side prop carrier rehearsal. Well done girl. I am speaking to my potential successor. =)

Remeber the letter that I wrote to all three of you? The letter that summons all of you to be back. Ha.. I mentioned that I wanted to create a theatrical experience in the presentation. Just wanna say that we have succeeded. We have achieved what we have started with. We have created the theatrical experience. The performance ground is no longer separated between the float and the dancers. The seniors like the presentation because it is tastefully different. Regina made me realised something that I have not observed about our float. She said that the ship is so large and there are so many other big side props around it that the ship is no longer viewed as a float. It has become another side prop in the whole performance landscape. Only then I realised that we have created a stage, a stage that once existed in our imagintion has become a reality.

To my pretty Wardrobers. Babes, you've started out lost and rough in the journey but you've emerged as winners at the end. Happy that all three of you survived and braved through the stroms with minimal knowledge and skills in sewing and wardrobe. So glad that all of you were self sustainable in the reading room and produced beautiful costumes despite having no wardrobe mistress. You babes are amazing, three pairs of hands to produce 40 sets of costumes from head to toes..I am just so fortunate to have ya girls as part of the wardrobe team because.. all of you are just so encouraging and motivating to one another. Great team dynamics. =) Yes, our costumes rock! My church friend who used to be from KEVII said our costumes were the most beautiful! Not just her, my many other friends feel the same as well. I must say, it is a pleasant surprise when I see everything, every piece of the costume come together on the preview night itself.. It's just so unbelievable.. the costumes are just so pretty!

To my dearest GTT, it has been really GREAT and pleasant working with all three of you. I am very privileged to have this opportunity to work with you. I enjoyed myself co-ordinating the dance presentation with you.. Congratulations on the GREAT job. Well Done. This year performance is really exciting because we have never done such kind of performance for Rag before. All three of you are the pioneers. Very proud of all of you because you've put up such a brilliant and entertaining performance. I am especially intrigued by the presentation concepts, such as the machine concept when the cranemen are part of a table and the passing of 'containers' to represent the workings of a crane. GTT always gives us surprises and creative ideas! Yes, I love the music too. Thanks Girls. So glad to know all three of ya better.

To Engineers. You people rock. You are the most civilised group of engineers that I have ever seen in my 3 years of Rag. Hardly hear anyone of you curse and swear at things with eplertive. It almost doesn't feel like an authentic Rag committee.. Ha. I am not complaining because this is a committee of LOVE. Each time when I see you all gather to laugh and tease on each other, I would always be amused to see all of you having so much fun. I want to specifically thank Shaun, you are the most responsible logistic personel that I have ever met. I want to thank my schoolbag girl, Hui Ying. Where is my school bag? Hahaha. You are brilliant. So FUN working with you. I hope you have enjoyed yourself doing the static display. I enjoyed working with you and thanks for all the contribution of ideas for the static stands. I like the way how you have made every item on the recycling rack so beautiful and professionally done. Our static display is impressive. =) Finally, I wanna thank my dearest Brother. SO glad to be in this committee together with you and have the opportunity to know you better as a person. Cheers!!

To Seniors. First, my sincere heartfelt appreciation to the BUDIMAN family! Special mention to Yeeying, Suching, Kailim, Siewling, Szeli, Xiaowen, Mifi, Diana, Jiayi, KY, Hai Bo, Kai Jun, Christ, Suleen, Prisilla, Hui Siang, Szelin, Justin, Chin sin, Ian, Ivan, Swee wei, Steve... and many many others.. I know our Rag committee is "BIG SHOT", each time when we invite the seniors back on our posing nights, they would not fail us but to return with kopi and milo pengs and contribute valuable feedback to our float. Thank all the past raggers who have contributed to this float building committee either in spirit, effort or financial support. Thank you other seniors who have graduated and are still very much attached to Eusoff and to Rag. We are certainly a privilege bunch of people, so loved by the people in hall, both the past and the present.

To Programmers and Flaggers of EHOC 06/07. THANK YOU! Your support counts. Thank you because you've helped us so so much.. Glad that we're all part of this EHOC committee.. So Glad that I've been through EHOC journey with all of you. =)

I am proud to be a member of EHOC RAG 06/07.
I have never felt so much for Eusoff until this year.
Two years back, I was deemed as a hopeless ragger who would not continue with Rag by Suleen and other main commers.
When Suleen said that she's proud of our achievements, my heart resonates together with hers.

My Greatest Satisfaction? When seniors approach me and congratulate me on a job well done.. when seniors pat on my shoulders and complements me that I have gowrn and matured.. and when.. I have this rare opportunity to befriend and know other seniors and eusoffians.

Every step is a learning journey for me. Taking up the challenge of being the Chief D is a self-exploratory learning journey. I emerged out of it knowing about my weaknesses and understanding more of myself as a person.

Cheers. We've reached!
Thank you all for believing and sailing this journey with me.
We ROCK this SHIP!

Love,
expired Chief D SY

2006-08-22T17:29:00.000+08:00

Give Thanks
for His abundant provisions in EHOC 06/07

Daddy Above has done many many things for EHOC 06/07. From the beginning, I am rested in His Hands and have a sense of certainty that God will lead us through this committee.

Our committee is small, smallest ever in my 3 years of EHOC committee. But, our committee is mightily powerful. Thank you Lord for all His provision. The programme committee manages to carry out all the orientation programmes everyday without having to cancel any of them. Praise Lord for bringing supportive and enthusiastic freshmen into our Hall this year. The flag committee did a brilliant job in breaking last year's record by 4.9K despite being a small committee of 5. The rag committee did the biggest float ever with the most no. of side props and put up the most unique presentation. All Glory to God because He makes all these achievements possible.

Personally, I am very thankful to God for sustaining me through this period of time. He provided me much support through my brothers and sisters in Christ, His word and His company and assurance. I give thanks because many things would not have been possible without Him.

He provided us with a wonderful float design and performance concept. To create a float with a theatrical experience is only possible when He puts that idea into my mind. The float and the dance presentation were successive breakthroughs in the History of EH rag float and dance presentation.

He provided us with recycling materials. I remembered I was very upset because the rubbish that we collected were thrown away while we were away from Rag work. I cried because the rubbish was removed from the foyer. Yes, it was very silly, but I was really upset! Ha.. In the end, we found a recycling plant where we could 'shop' for recycling materials. It was such a blessing because it is usually rare to find this kind of lobang. We indeed have a large variety of recycling materials for this year's float.

Finally, I would like to thank Him for giving me friends who are supportive of me and are concern of my welfare. My dear friends visited me while I was working in the hall. Thank you Lord for sending these people into my life. Their encouragement was very comforting in my times of struggles and tiredness.

Thank you Lord, my Heavenly King. =)

With much love and gratitude,

your princess Faith.

Here, I would really wanna thank the following people...

Kailin for your listening ears, for being with me through my last two days of Rag. Thanks babe for keeping me company. =)

Shaun for being so thoughtful to accompany me during meals and help the wardrobe team. Thanks so much..

KC & Nai. KC for coming all the way to fongseng to catch up with me and introduce me to a new friend. Nai for ya support. Thank you both of you for coming down to support me on Rag day.

Dillon & Alvin. Thanks for bringing me out for a short while for dinner. It was a beautiful time to dine with both of you at the Yatch club.. in such a beautiful place. After that dinner, I was very much energised and elated. It was a good break.

Andrew for disappearing for an extensive period of time.. and reappearing on Rag day itself. Although I didn't see you.. I was very touched that you've made the effort to come down to see my hall's achievement. Thanks.

Bro Jared. Thanks for taking photographs for us. Your photography is brilliant.

CG mate. Thanks for your prayer support and concern. I was very glad to see Jack, DK and Calvin on the preview night. Hee.. Thanks Bros! It was a pleasant surprise. Thanks Yenling for being there on Rag day itself. I am so happy that you are here to support my hall and your hall too.. Hee. =)

2006-08-01T04:11:00.000+08:00

Counting Down
11 more days to Rag Day

Last few days to Rag Day, I couldn't have imagined how I would have sustained for so long if it weren't for God. I am so glad that I've set out this journey happy and I am still happy now. It has been at least a good 2 months, a period of time which simply is not short, especially when I have to spent it working and not holiday-ing away.

I have never regret my decision for doing Rag the third time. My close firends do not know why I am doing this again, some might have said that I am crazy.. Some do not understand what is the joy of depriving myself from my summer break.. But for me.. I set out this journey with some purposes in mind. These are part of my dreams which I really would like to realise.

"Dreams: Sketches of the past, portrait of the future" is the theme for this year Rag Day. The themes aptly summarises my purposes of doing Rag. Looking at the past 2 Rag committee and float designs and after gathering relelvant experiences, I hope to transform these sketches into a new portrait for the furture of Eusoff Rag. I am doing it not because I am noble, but because I desire a change or even a revolution. As a designer, it's always my wish to see breakthroughs in the concept, float design and dance presentation for Eusoff Rag. I am glad that I have the opportunity this time to determine the concept and design of the float. As for now, I am very satisfied with what has been achieved. At the minimal, I have already managed to bring the Rag design and presentation into another stage. We have looked past our ancestors and taken the bold step forward into the depths of the unknown. Whatever the outcome would be, I am rested in the Lord. All is within the hands of God. Winning is not my agenda. Winning is a bonus. It's a public recognition which affirms the high level of achievement that is attained for the Rag design and presentation.

As for now, I am also very contented and thank God for granting me with such a lovely committee. A committee filled with Love and support for each other. We are a small committee, but we are a mighty one. Everyone is still working hard and pushing forward. No one is giving up. Because we believe that we could realise the big dream that could have seemed intimidating and unachievable. I have not given up. In fact, I am very much excited about Rag Day and the float that is going to shine with much pride and glory under the sun. The can detailings would just glisten in the bright sunlight.

Eusoff float will stand out like a gem which is ablazed in the magnificent reflection of the sunlight while everything else surrounding it becomes shadow in the brilliant glow of Eusoff float.

I know Daddy above is with us in this float building committee. Thank you Lord. =)

2006-07-29T17:34:00.000+08:00

Smelling the Air

"This is the ten minute before the rain. Take a break & soak in the smell."

I stopped painting and moved away from the foyer where everyone was working. Retreating into an open space that was sufficiently far from the smell of saw dust and yellow glue, I removed the gum from my mouth and attempted to smell the air. Was concentrating on smelling the air.

To my realisation, I hadn't been really successful in discerning the smell of the air before the rain. Maybe I have been so immersed in the strong smelling paint and yellow glue that the smell of the air before the rain has become very insignificant. My nose is no longer sensitive to the smell of air. I forget how does the air smell like.

I realised that I have been very absorbed in my Rag work lately. Maybe to an extent that I've neglected the little things in life that makes life so sustainable and beautiful. I should learn to think small and be more aware of the details around my life.

My English teacher back in my secondary school days always encouraged me to stop to smell the roses. I guess... I should learn to stop and smell the air.. Ha.. How does the air before the rain smell like?

Thanks Friend. For the gentle reminder. =)

Picture from http://www.wwoaw.net/

2006-07-26T12:38:00.000+08:00

Man in the Mirror

"Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it - he will be blessed in what he does.

If anyone considers himself religious and yet does not keep a tight rein on his tongue, he deceives himself and his religion is worthless. Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world. " James 1:22-27

I am truly blessed when I live a life intentionally to follow the foot steps of my Lord. The steps might not appear to be coherant. But when these steps lead me to my final destination of blessing and joy, the steps become united for one purpose. Disparate and incoherant steps contain similarity and order. One can discover this order when one attempts to take the incoherant steps. Life is like a box of jigsaw puzzle more than a box of chocolate. You'll never know how you are gonna get to the final completed picture until you begin putting random pieces together one by one. You may begin with the most confusing portion of the puzzle which could have given you much clue or the most monotonous portion of the puzzle by grouping the same coloured pieces of puzzles together. There are many ways to begin in order to reach one final destination. Is all about taking the first step, then the second step, then the third step and the next step ... step by step.. the destination shall be reached.

Counting my blessings each day. The bright beautiful sky... the wonderful rest... the contented heart... the happy working relationships... the interesting phone chats... the new faces I meet... Everyday can be a beautiful day when we learn to give thanks for every small or big blessing that our God has given us.

2006-07-25T11:11:00.000+08:00

"But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. what is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ - the righteousness that comes from God and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so somehow, to attain to the resurrection from the dead.

Not that I have alrady obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." Philipplians 7-11

Princess of the Heavenly King says..

Indeed, I am very privileged to be changed by the Lamb. So many things have happened ever since that day when I accepted Jesus into my life. That wasn’t too long ago, but God loves me so much that He allows many things to happen so that I could be changed at a much accelerated rate. I must admit that the journey hasn’t been smooth sailing. But it is through this process of uprooting of parts of me that are undesirable and displeasing to Him, that I am transformed to become more like him gradually. I am thankful to God for being the divine initiative who begins His good work in me. When the day I prayed the sinner’s prayer and handed my wretched life into His comforting hands, He has already begun His transformation work in me and answered my prayer.

I am sure God will perfect His transformation agenda for me. I know that He loves me and desires me to become the perfect daughter in His heart. I shall be patient and persevere in God’s strength during this continual transformation.

I am worth so much in Heaven that Jesus Christ died on the cross for me. I desire to be changed from glory to glory. Wish to become His righteous princess and bring glory to His mighty name.

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28

"being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:6

"But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Saviour from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body. " Philippians 4:20,21

Imagine the day when we could hold His hands and take a leisure and rested stroll in the Heaven's park above with Him...
Press on BASIC. We are almost there. We will meet our Heavenly King.

"Let us run the race, till we meet your face. O Lord, Let us live in the glory of your Grace."

2006-07-25T00:02:00.000+08:00

Rag Dinner
My training ground to become a better cook.

I cook/prepare food once in a blue blue moon for the raggers too!
ToFU Feast. Seaweed soup. Mapo Tofu. Chicken & mushroom black sauce stew. Xiao Bai Cai with oyster sauce.

I discovered the wonders of ready made sauce such as the chicken marinate sauce and Lee Kim Kee mapo sauce. Usually eat very light tasting and rather blend food at home. Hence, my taste bud is accustomed to natural tasting food with minimal seasoning. Have to get another person to QC the food so that the food tastes fine. Ha.

I'm sure Mama would be proud of me. Think she should be very amazed at my ability to cook without getting the food charred. I'm proud of myself too. But I'm lazy. hee.. I won't prepare food unless I feel like it. It's all part of being myself... being unpredictable..

2006-07-17T10:49:00.000+08:00

Updates
Busy Busy Busy
Joyously Busy

I am a part-time designer(because i design.. duh!), baby sitter (because I have to look after the welfare of my Raggers), liason officer (because I need to constantly liase with different departments in Rag and EHOC) and PR officer (because I need to represent the Rag team sometimes since I am their Chief). Multiple profiles for a Chief D. Multi-tasking most of the time. Yes, it is tiring. But I am enjoying what I am doing. Unpaid labour. But, 3 months of invaluable experience, fun (& mostly WORK) and camaraderie.

Pardon me for not updating lately. I have been busy. Rag has just picked up pace ever since my mid-Rag break ended. I could only recall myself climbing up and down many flights of staircase, shuttling between the foyer and the reading room where the wardrobe members are. Everything else was a blur. Vaguely remembered that I have to stock check on paints, speak to my designers, coordinate the kind of paints to purchase and to persuade the designers to minimise cost and use alternative paints if possible. While I manage my designers, I also look after the wardrobe members. I have to review the prototypes they make and give feedback accordingly.

Now that the Rag preparation is already into the second week of 24/7, alot of things have been largely confirmed. All that is left to completion is to stay positively motivated and adorn the structures with recycling materials.

Apart from adhering to schedule, one of the challenges as a main committee member is to learn how to manage people. I guess I am one of the worse people around who knows how to interact with people. I spend most of my time alone and hence lacking of PR skills. It is difficult because I have to constantly motivate my team members to work in a project that lasts for 2-3 months, which is effectively almost their entire holidays. I dislike being in a leadership position because I have to be really tactful when I give instructions. Sometimes when there's a need to quicken the pace, instructions have to be given so that minimal stress is induced in the hearts of the people.

Difficult I must say. But I believe God has placed me in this committee and position for a purpose. I am constantly learning how to respond to people under different situations. Like I say, I am very poor with PR. To add matter worse, I have a face that is unwillingly BLACK when I am tired, stressed or angered. As a result, I always look fierce and unapproachable. Jack asks me to print a T-shirt that says "Look above (referring to my face). I have not slept for 48 hours." God is using this process to change me and make me into a more lovable person.

Please pray for wisdom when I respond to different situations and make decisions for the committee. Pray that Jesus would be magnifested through me. May I glorify and honour His name in my words and deeds.

I admit. I could be easily worn out and feel stressed by the project and the people working in the project. I am very much affected sometimes when I am given a cold shoulder. Would usually hide in a corner and pray to Daddy above. Most of the times, I would be tearing for being really helpless. Helpless because I do not know how to respond and handle the people. When that happens, I would return to the long black face that makes me much less prettier. Sadness just soaks me wet. Kailin reminds me that it could be a ploy from Satan to stumble me. Please pray that I will surrender myself and allow God to manage me. I know God would deliver me.

Thanks for the prayers... and if I don't blog/update... pretty self explanatory... I am really BUSY with Rag. Would really be glad to see faces that I have not seen for a while. Do visit me. of course, love gifts and suppers are most welcome. Hee. =)

2006-07-16T17:20:00.000+08:00

EHOC Ubin Trip
Programme, Flag & Rag Team retreat into an offshore island.
Went to Pulau Ubin for a bonding trip.

2006-06-26T00:47:00.000+08:00

Youth Sunday
25 June 2006

2 years ago, on 27 June, I attended my first service in CEFC. It was the youth sunday in 2004.
Today marks my 2nd year in CEFC.

Thank you friend for bringing me there. I believe that my visitation to CEFC was divinely planned by the almighty Creator who is above all things.

"His Love Endures Forever"

Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good. His love endures forever.

Give thanks to the God of heaven. His love endures forever.

Pslam 136: 1 ; 26

2006-06-20T23:08:00.000+08:00

Global Day of Prayer

4 June 2006

If my people, who are called by my nme, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.

2 Chronicles 7:14

Global day of Prayer is indeed very memorable. I am truly blessed on that day when I could catch a small glimpse of what it is like to be in the Heaven where people of different tongues gather in the name of Christ to worship our God and our Lord Jesus Christ. So glad that the stadium was filled with people. Indeed, God has never fail His promise. The stadium was filled with believers, all worshipping in one voice to the most High God. I was gazing at the vast open sky while declaring the name of the Lord in songs of praises and adoration. Felt that the Lord was smiling at me with the sparkles of the twinkling stars in the dark blue sky.

Can't help controlling my tears when the youths ran into the stadium with flags of different nations in their hands. It reminded me that I am part of this prayer movement, and I belong in a bigger body of Christ which includes people from all other nations. The most touching moment of the prayer meeting was beyond my expectation. There was reconciliation between the Charismatic Pentacostal and the Conservatice Evangelicals when representative from each side seeks for forgiveness from each other. In addition, the representatives washed the feet and offered prayer of blessings for each other. At that moment, when their prayer ended with "In Jesus' name, Amen", I felt that the gates of Heavens were opened and angels of Heaven were celebrating for there was repentence and forgiveness within the Christian Family. It has always been my desire to experience UNITY within the Christian Family. I am so glad that my wish has finally come true. My prayer would be that the renewed Christian spiritual climate would be sustained and that Christians from all denominations would respect and treat each other with Love. I pray that there is no separation among the denominations because we are all part of the body of Christ.

Below features the photography of Brother Jared, who is becoming more professional with his photography skills. =)

2006-06-20T03:31:00.000+08:00

Son & Servant
Reflections of Pastor Swee Boo in his ministry.
4 June 2006

"We don't understand the hands of God, but we could trust His heart"

---Pastor Swee Boo

I Am My Father's Servant

Leadership in Christ

Show me your ways, O Lord, teach me your paths. Psalms 25:4

In leading a ministry, it is necessary to adopt a servanthood attitude. One's identity would be a servant to the maker, Jesus. When we are a sevant to Jesus, we not only serve Jesus, we also serve WITH Jesus. When we serve with Jesus, we serve His people. In leading a ministry for Christ, our ambition is not leadership. It should be servanthood. It is important that we do not dethrone Christ in our leading of a ministry. Leadership is a responsibility while servanthood is a posture of the heart.

I Am My Father's Responsibility

Full Obedience to the Father

The Vine and the Branches

"I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he purnes so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.

"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.

"As the Father has loved, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete." John 15:1 - 11

The consequence of abiding in Jesus and Jesus abiding in us is fruitfulness. God will lead us into a moulded matured Christian by making use of the environmental conditions around us.

"When I obey my Father, my Father takes away my burdens, my faither will take care of me, I am His responsibility."--- Pastor's wife

When we obey God and abide in Him, we will feel secured and comforted, because we are His responsibility. He will take care of all other things while my chief responsibility is to obey Him. Through obedience, I am rested and feel much loved. This is true restedness.

2006-06-20T03:10:00.000+08:00

Father's Day
The Parable of the Prodigal Son

Jesus continued: "There was a man who had two sons. The younger one said to his father, 'Father, give me my share of the estate.' So he divided his property between them.

"Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.

"When he came to his senses, he said, 'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.' So he got up and went to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.'

"But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate.

"Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. 'Your brother has come,' he replied, 'and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.'

"The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. But he answered his father, 'Look! All these years I've been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!'

'My son,' the father said, 'you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' "

Our Heavenly Father never forsake us. Even if we had strayed away from Him, He would be keeping watch and waiting for our return to Him. God is in ever pursuit of us. His grace and love is beyond measurable because even when we have yet to arrive at his throne and repent for our wrongdoings, 'He ran to 'us' and throw His arms around 'us'.

God is merciful. His grace is sufficient for our weakness.
When we feel unworthy and guilty for what we have done that displeases God, we repent, "Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son."
He would reply in love and excitement, " Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found."

2006-06-12T01:21:00.000+08:00

牵手过马路
姐弟情深

弟：你会不会过马路？
姐：不会。
弟：好，我牵你的手。真是麻烦。
姐：哈哈
弟：看车啊！牵你这个老顽童真麻烦。
姐：哈哈
弟：你这么“大只” 真是难牵啊！
姐：哈哈

姐姐满脸笑容，并幸福地牵着弟弟的手往家归去。

2006-06-07T01:21:00.000+08:00

My trip Back to Mama's Hometown
Muar in May

Spent a weekend over my grandmama's place. My family went to Muar to visit my grandmama and for a short family trip out of JB. It was indeed enjoyable to live a life of basics. Went to visit a harbour. The stench of the salted fish and murky water was overwhelming but tolerable, especially when sightseeing a harbour was rare for my civilian life in a city. Appreciate the beauty of the enveloping scenery. Below is some Kampong Flavoured Photography!

2006-06-06T19:05:00.000+08:00

"Old School" Photos
Back to my old school building
Meet my old school friends

Went to back to old school campus at Ghim Moh. Very Nostalgic as I walked and recalled the activties that I used to do at different parts of the school. I love my school and the school building. It might have been very rundown but it aged with grace and exotic beauty. A cozy school building that existed for at least 20 years.

"It feels good to be back. I hear from Ms. Tang that the school's officially moving to Bishan on 29 Dec. Suddenly the thought that RJ will no longer have dirty blackened tracks, run-down toilets with faulty mechanisms, decolourise walls with peeling, flaky paint and grubbly mouldy benches...

Actually felt disturbing. The kind of weird sentiments that go towards the school campus can only be appreiciated by those who have already left it. Oh well. JC was fun. Enjoy it while you can. "

A letter of an ex-student to her juniors.

Found it on the notice board near ODAC table.

"Old School" Photo.

Taken when I was leading a J1 OG, Venizar (the clan of Lizards), with Nikolaus. Year 2002.

"New School" Photo. First ever reunion after 3 years. with Venizar OG. May 2006.

The Council Room where the J1 Orientation 2002, Xantheus, was organised.

Inside the Council Room. The relics and legacies.

The welfare room.

The welfare board.

The school hall where numerous scholars were produced. Ha.

The canteen where stall 3 uncle was my favourite vendor,

home made ice lemon tea that cost 30 cents and

delicious fried chicken wings & curry puffs from the Malay aunties,

deep fried mash potatoe balls and freaking cheap yong tau fu were found.

The running track & spectator gallery where NAPHA was held,

and I was jogged my annual 2.4 km.

2006-06-06T18:07:00.000+08:00

What I used to be good at...
3 years ago...

2006-06-06T01:56:00.000+08:00

On Sunday
04 June 2006
on my way to Changi airport
when i send my dear friend off ... ...

I got out of my bed and trodded to Kent Ridge Terminal at 5.55am. I took the 1st Bus 200 and reached Bouna Vista MRT station where I travelled my MRT towards Changi Airport. Alighted at Kallang and decided to switch to a cab instead so that I could arrived at Changi Airport before 7am. Was it a trip well spent in order to save 15 minutes? Yes, it was. I was engulfed with enchanting scenery while I was travelling on CTE and heading towards the iconic control tower. Mersmerised by the vast sky which was tinted with hues of orange and red before the sky is fully lit by the morning sun. A spectacular view.

A Wonderful Creation of God indeed! A beautiful canvas of God's creativity.

A sense of sadness crept ino my heart when I reached the airport. I was there to send Bro Ben off, who left for China for 7 months exchange. He is one of my closer archi mates whom I confide my problems to. He always touches my heart with his sensitive advices. Sad because he is away from Singapore. Happy because I know he would be experiencing an adventurous journey with God in China for I believe that God has called him to China for a purpose.

I struggled to pen down some words in my little black book after he left,
"Wonderful brother who has been ever so evident of God's love, who always beamed radiantly with joy, and ever so faithful and confident with our Faithful God. Thank you Ben, I'll miss you."

2006-05-30T08:32:00.000+08:00

Back for the Third Time

I am back because I felt that I have not truly appreciated being in the rag committee. It takes me a long time to really understand and learn to appreciate Rag. During my frist year as a designer, I was disgusted with Rag preparation. I didn't like the retrictive working schedule which couldn't allow me to do other things during the holidays. Spending my entire holiday for Rag preparation was really a big sacrifice. I hadn't really made that sacrifice because I was still busily involved with other things. I had many things on my plate. However, I regretted not spending my attention and time on Rag preparation because I was perpetually busy with other activities like FOC preparation for my faculty, dance classes and helping my professor in an architecture exhibition. I wished I had spent more time with the fellow raggers. I felt so alienated from the committee at the end of the day because I didn't feel like part of the team. Of course, although I have found new friends whom I am close to, I wished I had been a more co-operative team member and spent more "bonding" time with them.

During my second year of Rag, I returned to design costume for the dancers. This time, my rag involvement began with my interest in designing costumes. I joined the committee and met a bunch of fun loving people. My wardrobe team comprised of the most interesting and lovable ladies. I really had a good time working with them and playing with them. They made my Rag experience really enjoyable. I learnt to be involved in team building activities and spent more time with my fellow raggers. Working and preparing for Rag was much easier because the people whom I am interacting with were just so fun and crazy. Although I enjoyed my rag experience, I regretted terminating it prematurely. I left the team one month earlier before Rag Day because I flew to Korea for my exchange programme. The last one month was the most intensive month. I wished I was there to be with the raggers and support them through the intensive working period. Not being able to walk through the remaining journey with the rest of the team was indeed very regretful. My wardrobe mistress cried on Rag Day itself because I wasn't there to see my hard work and design which had been realised on the Rag Day itself.

Hence, I am back for the third time. This time, I promise myself that I would dedicate my time for Rag and Rag only. I truly want to experience this Rag journey from the beginning to the end.

2006-05-29T21:17:00.001+08:00

老爹给我的一封信

28-05-06

爱女淑仪，

这次的跌倒，属于意外，虽然不轻，但是一次的挫折，绝对不是永远的失败。收拾心情，总结经验，勇敢继续向前，一定会取得最后的成功。我坚信，你一定做得到。

奖学金拿不到，不要紧。千万不要耿耿于怀，我目前已有足够的收入和储蓄让你和锐淞在新加坡读完你们的大学全部课程。衷心感谢你多年来的优越成绩取得奖学金减轻了我应对你们负起的承担。

不要由于重修一科需要多一年的时间而考虑只读3年课程拿普通学位就毕业，除非校方不批准和已没有条件了，只要还有机会，你一定要争取读完荣誉学位 (Honours Degree), 虽然要多一年时间才能毕业。

不管你毕业后要不要做绘测或和它有关联的工作，不论你想在那一行业工作，由于你已经修读了绘测，应当把修完绘测的大学课程（荣誉学位），看成是人生成长过程，在学业上要达到的一个比较完美的阶段。这是我的想法，提出来让你参考。

不要为未来得问题匆匆茫茫做出决定，明了问题的真相后，暂时把问题放在一旁，先把情绪冷静起来, 改天再去考虑，不论你的决定是怎么样的，我都会全力支持你。

没有空，不必回来。 6 月1 号老妈将出国旅游，等她回来后，我们会抽空去看你。

改日再谈吧，顺祝
健康愉快

父字

2006-05-27T15:39:00.000+08:00

I 've got a D for Design

It comes as a shock to me when I saw my design grade. I have never imagine myself to fail my design because I am very satisfied with what I have produced. My tutor was happy with what I have done too. I did considerably alright for my internal examination because I know I am way above a passing grade. However, I believe that I have failed in my external examination that has cost me such a horrendous grade. I am not the only one who is affected. Many of the people who have been selected for the external critique were affected very badly. For most of those who were not chosen, they could still maintain at least a passing grade, C, even after moderation.

I know my own design standard well. I have always been getting at least a Bplus for my previous projects. I don't think I am such a lousy designer to deserve a grade like this. I was indeed very very upset after I got over my shocked response while looking into my laptop screen. Couldn't believe that it was a D grade and not a B grade.

I do not know what has gone wrong. My design is rather resolved. I fulfilled all the submission requirements and I wasn't late for submission. My drawings were decent and my design wasn't bad. I do not know where I have been penalised. I felt quite unjustified with the results of the external examination.

I could feel unjustified. But at the same time, I am very helpless. I couldn't do anything to my grade any more. Appealing to review my grade is pointless because the grade would not change. To review the grade would only mean to check and ensure that there's no typo error when the grade is keyed into the computer system. My tutor has affirmed that I did not pass and I believe that the grade is correct.

How do I feel?
Was shock, then upset, and later assured. Assured in the hands of the Lord that this is merely a passing phase. I believe that this happen for a reason. Probably God has allowed it to happen for a bigger purpose in the future, which I could only wait for the moment. I told my cell group members about it. They are all very concerned about me. But seriously, for each and everyone of you who is reading my entry now, do not be worried about me. I am fine. I have accepted my grade and I am no longer crying over it. I believe that this is part of God's plan and I am sure that He will guide me through. I told my cg friends that ever since I came back from Korea, I have learnt to cope with every difficulty according to what the Lord has led. Nothing could compare to my spiritual BMT in Korea. It was so intense then, and I emerged from it victorious because I know myself better and I have grown alot more from it. I give thanks to God for everything He places in my life. He has a purpose for me. I learn to rejoice and give thanks in both good times and bad times for my Lord is Good and He will not forsake me.

"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me." Psalm 23:4

What do i do next?
Having a D grade for design would mean that I would have to repeat this module. Initially, I have an intention of graduating with a D grade in design since it is still a passing grade by the NUS standard. But later I found out that I would need a minimum C grade in design to file for graduation. This means that it's not time for me to leave NUS and venture into the working world yet.

I asked if there's a summer semester for those who have failed this module, so that we could repeat the module now and would still be in time for the upcoming semester. But, the department is not offering to our cohort this year although they have done it once for the previous batch.

Well, at the end of the day, I don't have much of a choice actually. I would still need to apply for leave of absence in the next semester. After which, I would have to repeat the module in the second semester. This means that if I am still going ahead with honours, I would graduate one year later.

What do I get out of everything?
I am thankful that my tutor believes in me. She said that I am a strong girl and saw in me the desire to learn. What she said was enough to comfort me because my efforts and design abilities are recognised. She was satisfied with my work. I trust that she has tried her very best to appeal for me and negotiate with the external examiners before the grade was determined.

I have to thank her for guiding me throughout the design process. I am very thankful that she gives me a personal space for creation without dictating or prescribing too much in my design development. She is like the rudder of a boat that steers me in my desired direction which she could see clearer than me. Once in a while, I could have strayed from the designated direction but she was always around to guide me. Although it could be quite exasperating sometimes when she seems to be offering unhelpful comments like "I don't know", "You have to try" or "I am not sure" while sketching on the butter paper intuitively, I appreciate her for not being deterministic. She challenges me to think. And I really have learnt alot from her.

Prayer Request
Please pray for the Lord's guidance from now onwards. Pray for a given direction so that I would know what I could do while I am away from school for one semester.

Also pray for my scholarship renewal. I am currently having ASEAN scholarship. I am afraid that they might not allow me for renewing scholarship in the subsequent year since I would need to repreat one semester. I actually meet the minimum requirements for sustaining the scholarship and renewing it despite my bad grade. I have always been meeting the requirements during my university education. I have no history of not doing well. The only factor that could prevent me from having the scholarship again in the following academic year would be my disruption in my acadmic journey. Pray that the scholarship board could understand my situation and would allow the renewal of my scholarship.

My Sincere Appreciation
Finally, dear friends, I know you all believe in me. I am thankful to everyone of you who has been keeping me in your prayers. Allow me to thank the following friends specifically.

Bro Kengsan and Yunnong for criting my work and guiding me through my design process. Really learnt alot from the critique sessions. Thank you for being with me through my eve of submission. To keep me company and emotionally controlled when I was like far from finishing my work. Thanks to Bro San for helping with my model. Your model making skill is good.

Da jie Sulin who has also helped me in my design development when I was uninspired with my work.

Pearlene, Sharon and Weibin (my shortwing neighbours), for they have been encouraging me and sustaining me emotionally while I was labouring through the submission period. I really miss you babes!!! I miss being in B2 short wing.

My Sunshine Dawn. Never forget the cheerful smses that encourage me alot while I am working through the late nights. Your smile at my stoned looking face has never fail for me to return a smile to you. You are just so adorable, darling.

Andrew LJ for keeping me entertained with boliao smses while I was cadding in the unexciting digital studio and while you were doing your guard duties.

My cellgroup BASIC. They have been very concern of my design examinations, and now about my grade. Just want to thank all of you for being such great support! Hee.. I might be a baby in the CG but I am matured enough to handle this little downfall. Not to be worried about me. I am really really alright. HAhaha!

I pray that my entry would edify you. I am very excited with where God is going to bring me. It's out of the ordinary education pathway now. I am going to journey through a thirlling walk with Him. I am looking forward to it.

Haha. Not to worry. I am still sane. =)

2006-05-22T01:01:00.000+08:00

To my dearest friends who love me dearly,

I am all well and fine.
Apologies for not updating my blog for more than a month.
Have been really busy with going out, keeping fit, sleeping, eating, slacking and watching tv. Hee..
Have a lot of things to blog and update in mind actually...
Promise to blog soon.

Finally, Just wanna thank you one and all..
For Loving me the way I am. =)

God Bless.

Faith

2006-04-27T19:35:00.000+08:00

花痴。
My Affection for Flowers.

I LOVE flowers. Flowers are such lovely and pretty creations of God. I would be smitten each time when I receive beautiful flowers from friends. Not that I always receive them, but I sometimes dream that my close friends would remember and get me a stalk of flower when we meet. Ha.. I say is a dream, a dream yet to be realised. I have to keep on dreaming...

I love to see the smile on my dear friends' face when I get them flowers. Their faces would beam with joy and elation.. I just love to plant flowery surprises for them, because I know, their life would be adorned with flamboyant flowers on that special day.

I love all kinds of flowers. I have no specific preference. I always remind my friends to buy colourful flowers for me on my funeral day, so that my funeral would not be a morbid affair. Ha. My friends should be delighted that I have passed my test on earth and moved on to somewhere higher to meet my Lord. Remember, funeral shouldn't be a mourning event filled with white chrysanthemums, lilies, roses and daisies. It should be a light hearted event which is beautified with fragrant and flamboyant flowers that make one's departure happier. =)

I guess I am a romantic girl who loves beautiful things. I love to spin sweet fairy tales with merry endings. I am rather certain that I would enjoy being a wedding planner/co-ordinator. Each wedding is a special fairy tale for a bride and a groom. I love to choreographe this fairy tale and make it memorable for the newly wed couple.. Maybe maybe.. I should seriously consider to equip myself with relavant skills and experience.. and become a wedding planner! =)

(P/S Flowers recommendation: Fresh & very affordable flowers could be bought from Ghim Moh wet market. The florist provides good services and helpful advices in the selection of flowers for a bouquet. My all time favourite is 'Flowers matter', a shope underneath the escalators in Millenia Walk. I particulary appreciate the unique wrapping of the flowers because the flowers are wrapped in thick papers like putting on a kimono dress on the flowers.)

2006-04-24T02:32:00.000+08:00

A reminder to be careful of personal desire to do His will.
Do it wil zeal, but with a good purpose; for the evil one is constantly hiding in ambush.
Could easily do everything for God with zeal.
But, remember to do all things in His strength and not mine alone.

23 April 2006

I desire to do your will, O my God; your law is within my heart.

Psalm 40:8

24 April 2006

Those people are zealous to win you over, but for no good. What they want is to alienate you from us, so that you may be zealous for them. It is fine to zealous, provided the purpose is good, and to be so always and not just when I am with you.

Galatians 4:17-18
A letter to the churches in Galatia from Paul.

2006-04-17T19:36:00.000+08:00

Finally, everything is finished.

I just had my critique session which marks the end of my architecture project for the semester. I feel really tired now, maybe because I did not sleep much the previous night. Felt a little bit deflated after the crit. The tutor said there's potential in my scheme but as for now, at the current development, it is still far from ideal. I was a bit upset initially but I am glad that the tutors saw the effort that I have invested in this design project. My studio tutor even helped me during the crit by mentioning some of my initial ideas which I didn't mention during my presentation.

Sigh.. I was really lost for words during my presentation. Wasn't confident at all with my presentation. I like what I designed, but I find it really difficult to explain my ideas to the crit panel. Maybe my ideas in the design are really muddled up. There was no clarity in form and architectural expression. The last time when I felt hard to 'sell' my design was when my tutor has changed my design so extensively that it was difficult for me to explain the final architecture with sound architectural intentions.

I was indeed disappointed intially. But the disappointment didn't wear me out.. It was shoved off my shoulders flippantly after a short while. I am reminded of the goodness of my Lord and how He has constantly blessed me in my entire design. I have nothing to fear because the design is His, and I know He will bless the design. I should be contented with whatever outcome of the crit because everything is under His control, everthing that happens is in His will...

I just pray that I would not have to go for the external examination when there would be another critique session with a panel of judges who are from outside university.

(Before my presentation, Zhi Lei told me that she heard from Thai Heng that I was a good with my oral presentation. 5 years ago, I was the valedictorian for my graduating year and I gave a speech on behalf of my cohort. He was impressed by my speech and said that He would be glad if he could present at half of my standard.. Well.. I was certainly flattered... But I told Zhi Lei.. that that was history.. haha...)

2006-04-15T16:31:00.000+08:00

Why people 'SMOKE'?

Dearest Johnny,
In reply to your post on your blog..
There are many reasons why pple use 'smoke' to describe their design.

1) The tutor could have changed their design so much that they couldn't possibly identify with it or even agree with it. The reason why students heed to the tutors' advices because we are afraid that we might fail if we don't.. and usually we always think that tutors could have given us the better solution since they are more experienced. This is what I appreciate about our tutor. She's not exactly very deterministic, and she allows room for us to make our own decisions, and carve our own ways. (haha!.. although sometimes.. remarks like "i don't know, you have to try it yourself" weren't very inspiring and helpful!)

2) The student is not focussed in the process of design. As a result, the student included many things.. that couldn't possibly linked to their orginal intent. Hence, they find it difficult to deliver a convincing project presentation. They could have felt that their design is fragmented in ideas and architecture intentions. Hence, "smoking" their design is conveniently and indirectly used to express one's in ability to create a holesome picture of their architecture. Many of us face this problem, because we could be easily distracted from the multiple options we have, and not followed closely to our original intent. In another situation, our original intent does not perpetuate our design development far, and from the original intent, we digressed to other small intents/ strategies, that could be mostly irrelavant to what we have started with. Most of us coud also have been so caught up with the idea of 'CONCEPT' that we find it difficult to deliever an architecture that is very very coherant with our concepts.

3) When we look back at our design process, and try to make some sense out of it.. sometimes we realise that we spend a lot of time post rationalising our design. When we design, we would meet with unexpected solutions which we couldn't possibly explain and summarise these solution in words. We could have obtained these unexpected solutions from multiple permutations of a solution to a design problem or purely by our own intuition. A solution obtain from our intuition is usually not valid in our crit because the tutor would want us to substantiate our every move in our design execution with thoughtful reasons. We couldn't possibly tell the tutor "I feel that it is correct.. therefore I do it this way.." !! haha.. Hence, when we post rationalise, and when we couldn't find valid and convincing reason.. therefore.. we tried to fabricate a good enough reason to back up our design.. some of us 'smoke'.

In summary, some of us 'smoke' because we are not confident of ourselves and our designs. We could really tell from the way a person presents his design during crit. If he has a purpose.. We could see it in his face and hear it through his words.

2006-04-15T14:03:00.000+08:00

Post Submission Blue
I slept. I woke UP. It was 12noon.
I missed my submission deadline for my portfolio.

That was what my neighbour described when she tried to wake me up for dinner,
"I pat on you gently, hoping to ask you out for dinner.. You did not respond. Then i shook you gently.. you still did not respond.. i decided to shake you violently... you stil still did not respond... You slept like a log"

I woke up

I slept for 20 hours for the past 1.5 days, and woke up for meal breaks, 3 times. Hibernate, eat, hibernate, eat...

2006-04-11T11:20:00.000+08:00

She is my Morning.
Dawn

On the eve of submission
Hehe! Miss ya too sweetie! Im up n awake studying in e lib.. Jiayou for ur design! U have one more day! *muuuak*

On the day of submission
Hey darling! Hope all went well with ur design! =) everything else is in God's hands k! Dun worry abt it anymore! Cheers! =)

2006-04-07T22:29:00.000+08:00

Physically tired. Spiritually revitalised.

Tired. Very much physically worn out from the lack of sleep and extensive cadding in front of a computer.
Was planning to work on my model in the evening, when my CGL Alvin smsed me to inform me that there would be a cell group meeting for all the cell groups of the NUS halls. I was contemplating and considering if I should go for the meeting. Was actually very keen, but.. I have work to do, and I cannot afford to procrastinate my work further..

Was supposed to print my panel first then use it for model making. However, there was a long queue at scalebar and sengcity was not available. (it was year 2 aki submission, hence the busy business).. In other words, I didn't manage to print my panel, and I couldn't work on my model.

I guess God wanted me to be there in the meeting. I went for the meeting in the end. I am glad that I was there. If not, I would have missed out alot. I was very much touched by the Heavenly Father. I was certainly refreshed after the meeting. I was very blessed in the meeting when I could pray and sing praise to Daddy most High together with other new found brothers and sisters in Christ in LT 19!

One thing I am sure. The Lord is always with me. I have nothing to worry or fear. I am determined to be a living testimony during this time of submission when there would be chaos, panic and fear. I shall stand strong and reflect the power of Jesus through me. I find security and confidence in my Lord Jesus Christ. Hence I have nothing to fear. I desire to shine for the Lord.

I am spiritually recharged. I sing praise. I am joyous because the Lord is with me!
AMEN!

5 days to submission

2006-04-07T07:11:00.000+08:00

He is the Architect of my Life.
His mighty hands draw beautiful brushstrokes and paint vibrant & flamboyant colours in my monochromatic life.
Life is never the same again.

6 days to submission

2006-04-05T21:15:00.000+08:00

Blessed by my professor

Shall record this down, because.. his encouragement and concern really touch my heart. Was walking along the archi corridor when I bumped into him. He invited me to his office.

I went into his office and was greeted by a model which he was building. His room was filled with shelves of books and beautiful skeletal wood models. It was impressive.

He called me in to share with me his current project. Chatted a little while with him and was inspired by him. Glad to have talk to him. He showed me his project to inspire me and encourage me in this final lap of the design stage.

I was certainly very happy and moved for his concern and care.. Thank you SIR! =)

God send wonderful people into my life to support and edify me. Thank you Father!

7 days to my submission

2006-04-04T19:50:00.000+08:00

A Blessed Smile

Sunday 02 April 2006
I hadn't smiled with such Blessedness.. for a long long time. I thank you friend for you have made me feel really special. I felt like a princess on that day. (Ha.. Ordered alot of food, just to ensure that I am well fed!)

Thank you Victor, for being such a precious friend.

Angel Faith.

2006-04-03T16:49:00.000+08:00

Guys should be alot nicer and not make girls cry.

Guys should be alot more sensitive and not irritate girls.

Guys should be alot more eloquent and not make girls feel like speaking to a wall that reflects what she speaks into her face as echoes.
Girls like speaking to a sound asorbing wall.

2006-04-01T09:59:00.000+08:00

With Pearlene

2006-03-31T01:12:00.000+08:00

A Glimpse of the Future?
Demented Architect